Sunday, May 29, 2005

hmmm sorry peeps....have not been blogging...well infact ii'm online...is just that....i'm lazy....or....no...rather i'm so infatuated with my secret diary....i feel so wonderful blogging there....i so love it......lolx....wells....
hmmm had church today...
someone dun seem so happy..
has something happened?
i wonder.....tell me.....

wat's wrong with my fren?(from skool)
she refuses to tell me anything
i know she's having trouble....
has something also happened?
tell me...

it's the holidays....
i'm feeling drained out
have i been working too much?
tell me....

it's sunday.......
a day to worship GOd...
have i been restricted?
tell me.....

life.....
is
never
ending
infact
it
would
when
will
he
appear?

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

sorry pppl haf not been updateing....cuase i am so inlove with the secret diary i haf....that's so woderful i mean it allows me to say anything i want and only two wonderful friends can view it...wells...nvm...had maths ca tday....it was a disaster....hate it so...nvm...haiz...dun feel like talking....*Depressed*

Monday, May 23, 2005

yEs...it's so late already right!?i know haha...wells...ya...had a really meaningful day...it's my bdae! and wells...i did so many things...it was so packed!!went out early in the morning at8...haha...i shall write about what happen!here it goes

morning...went to church!wells...yahz...hmM so cool though...i felt the warmest handshake by some one today...i really love it...and just that handshake and that few words...make me melt!!!haha shant elaborate!

okay after church service

met my mum at bishan junction 8 haha...shopped there...i bought this jeans..it's so cool...vintage dash...and there was a free beach bag!!!so cool! oh yes...we went to sooo many shops. and i bought sooo many things...and it was soooo heavy....alright..the next part! most interesting!

after meetin mum.went to meet frens

went to somerset MRT to meet my frens...they invited me to this premier show...of MAGADRASCA...the show was fantastic!!!and it reallt was!!!it's sooooooo ever sooo funny ahahah wells we went to take neos....hmmm ate...and...! hahha!wells..it was a fun day though! haha...love it and enjoy it!thanks dudes for that wonderful bdae treat..i really love it alot!!thansk! love ya all lots...

Saturday, May 21, 2005

yahz....it's tml...but so?!?what u want me to do?...sorrow vs joy...and in my case...sorrow won!that's very saddening...i wonder how will it be like....if tml my mum brings me out.and i am down there tinking so much?!?nono !!! i won't it's my day!! and i should enjoy.......is like obviously!!! but tml there's church!!!! i haf not been able to go church for a few weeks because of my mummy....that's not fair...is lke she always purposly plan sometihing,.,...like say ask me do house work and stuf...and last week i did SIX HOURS of house work!!!i tell ..that isn't fun...u might as well ask me to go be a maid! at least i get a pay! wells...i really want to go church tmll....to celebrate with my church mates...my beloved church mates.......miss them so much....but it seems to be the wrong day...cause....a few of them will be off for some reheasals for their skol band...and one of them is elim jie!!!! boo..i want her to be there! i miss her alot.......and i really do......and how can she be MIA?!?!?! not fair......the world is crashing down on me so badly.....that's not fair...the world is crashing down on me...why should they!!!?!?!?!i am only a child....a teenager...only 14 and yet..look! the worlds crashing down on me....woW!! so wonder ful yeh?!?(sarcastic) life is horrible and it is...

Friday, May 20, 2005

stress...stress....stress...stress...what can i dO?sad and stress is what i feel everyday...there's nothing to make me happy...happy things dun last....they dun...but y? should the sad things stay?and hurt me forever!?!i dun get it...there's so many things going on everywhere and everymoment....i dun want to elaborate...i dun want....this is what i am..

why can't ever joy last?why must they fade away and burst like bubbles?why???tell me!!wat makes the sad things deserve to stay?

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

wells...skool today...was...er...speechless..wells...many things happened....hmmm had literature screening today about the little princess...it was nice and scary at some parts...but...most of the time...my mind got drifted away...to a faraway island...dreaming...and dreaming...so wonderful...but...so many things broke my wonderful dream....it's was flawless...and i love it so much...will it happen?that i really dun't know...will it?tell me?i really want that dream to come true...it will be so wonderful...

haiz any way.so sad...a stress pimple popped out of my face today! that's really so sad...haiz...i really have to admit...i have been rather stressed lately and it's all showing physically....so sad...two more strands of white hair.what the freak!!!and now this pimple!?!?!?!?!?!life so unfair...wells....got back most of our marks today....i failed history SbQ.....this is a freak thing can???fail!!!man!!!flunk math too!happy happy???wadeva lor......i was so pissed during history....and almost cried...cause i was trying not too...embarrasing...haiz then instead....i was so angry the!!!and i was reading my book! i hack already lahz...this is horrible no matter what k?try yourself...

alright.....went to bedok after screening...and bought some new clips...i lost alot of them so sad....boo...hmm i can't wait to cut my hair! and i want to!!!!when will i get to cut it?sigh asap please!!!!i want a new hairstyle...and it must be layered no matter what....the best is to have it wildly layered and i would be really satisfied!!!hahahah!!!but my mum wants me to haf long hair...so i can't cut much!!!hmmm....so sad......anyways.......haz...........

Monday, May 16, 2005

hmMm...wells...now adays..i have been blogging alot at my secret diary...i think that's really nice...it's locked and stuff and i mean is like i feel so secure..i can vent my anger and stuff there...and talk everything that i dun want others to know...and for that...only two ppl has access to there!and of course...we are the threesome!!and of course!forever we are....fantastic..and we are...there's always u know...some one that u can turn to whenever u want...and that's so great...wells...u know who u two are!and...well...best wishes...to my darlings!!!haha!!!=)

WELLS....surprisingly...i forgot that today is my LUNAR BDAE....aiyohz...but...it was a stressful day i have to admit and of course it is...there's is so many things...and everyday...problems are adding...wells.i shant mention them...but...cause i dun want to...any way...my 'costume' for my role...is...long pants and shirt!...so cute though...of course it is!!wells...luckily...i managed to win!and u won't haf make up on!!
hooray to everythng!!!wells of ocurse it is....heh..nothing to blog about today...what i want to say..is substituded by a word....STRESS that's it...what else can i say???so sad right?

Sunday, May 15, 2005

Wells i just came back from compass point...hmm so sad though..doing house work for the whole day!!!well never mind...God made ways...and he really did...i really love him so much!...it's like a sudden urge for me to write down all the testimonials that God has done for me...but it's alot and alot!!!is like everyday there is deinately ONE testimonial...amen!God is great...so great...wells...today i went to life bookshop to buy a ook i longed desired and finally i get to buy it...because God made ways for me again!!!i really desire that book for so long...and finally it was like when i went to the counter..the person told me that if i produced my ez link card..there will be a ten percent discount..and i was sooo thank ful...God made ways..its' my first time ever...without hesitation buying something that cost 5 days of my recess money...the book costs $15.20 to be exact...that's after discount...
wells...Jesus totally rawk..any way...the title is HEAVEN IS SO REAL...omg..it's sooo fantastic...God's love is fantastic....it 's an international best seller...and it totally deserve to be one!!!cause the content is fantstic...and i really have to admit it...having to know how heaven is like...and i tell u...no one can ever imagine how beautiful heaven is..not even an artist...it is sooo beautiful...beyond description...and it is!JEsus rawks!!!!no words can describe heaven!totally none!!!it's sooo worth it paying for that book although i know i won't get to have recess sometimes...it's worth everything...
Dear heavenly father...i thank u for everything that u have enabed me with...lord...u are the most worthy of every praise...father...i thank u for this day...lord that u have blessed me...everything that happen is a blessing in disguise lord...for u are great..and u do mighty wonders lord...there is no one else like u...o father...i pray that u will continue to bless the church lord...as we belive that one day there will be light upon our church...that there will be an increse in to yourkingdom...father i pray that u willl bless each and every church member during the week as they carry out their activities...and help us not to neglect u despite our busy schedule...in Jesus name i pray...amen!

what's the meaning?!?it's sunday hello?and it was like at first my mum said that i can't go church...then yesterday she say can...and when i asked her today...she gave me that sarcastic tone and say...up to u...what's her problem?!?hello??!?!?!?i didn't say that i want to go to te arcade right!?! then!?!it's church!!!so what's the problem..!??there's nothing wrong with going to church...and now...see...she said she wanted to go to the market...but now~?~what's she doing!?!?talking on the phone for ore than two hours already....might as well let me go church and worship thy king!!!wahlau!!!i am so angry now...i can't stand it...go church also give me a sarcastic tone...like making me feel guilty if i decide to go...so what's her prob?she rather me stay at home like NOW!!!and listen to her talk to her friends?!?isnt' it more time wasting!?!?!u tell me lahz!!!i am so angry now!!!and i am exploding!!!!what's the problem!?!?for the whole of MAy ,my mu have been giving excuses after excuse...trying to crop something up on sundays on purpose...in the end...did she do it!?!?!?!NO NONONONONO she didn't!!!!instead making me laze around for nothing wasting all my time...she dun plan andshe's dragging me in to waste time with her!?!?!?!?!?!?what's the meaning!?!?!?!i dun get it!!!!!!it's so damn ******* unfair **** ***** *** i dun care i am that pissed!!!!i want to go church!!!CAN"T I???i didn't say i want to go arcade so y MUST SHE GIVE EXCUSEs???making me waste my time!!!even now...at this munute at this second she
's still talking...what am i doing?!*** ?!?she wanted to go to the market and where am i now???at home in front of the com!!!really but something is wrong up in her mind...she got some psychological prob isit????????????????****???????come on lah i really miss church...this is the fourth weeK!!!!sho wht's her prob???is like whenever iun go to church there is this burden in me!!!WHAT"S THE PROB??????JUYTREHFGIUOJPKOIUYTSE$%R^T&YUIKJHGFDA WERT^Y&U*IOL

Saturday, May 14, 2005

therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the bodymore than clothing?... But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you."Because of love he left his throneAnd made this earth his homeHe did it willinglyFor you and meWith heaven left behindHe came to save all mankindFrom sin and shameHe could have walked awayBut instead he choseTo stay upon that tree And take a crown of thorns for meBecause of loveBecause of love he bore my pain Shouldering the blameWhy did he chose to go, he didn't have to goHow could he love me so?Because of love he called to meHe said child I will set you freeYou'll have life abundantlyBecause of loveHe gave unselfishlyCaused my blinded to eyes to seeIt was you and me he had in mindOn the road to CalvaryI never known such a perfect loveI had fallen down but he picked me up He rescued my soul
Now I want the world to know

hMm wells...saturday...it's o boring...there seem to be nothin to do...wells...what can i say..??all i can do is to stay infront of the computer and start typing craps like now...anyway....today i just created a diary...at diaryland...wells...t0o bad...it's locked unfortunately haah only those whom i allow will be able to read my diary...it's to secretive...and wells...of course only two ppl has got access to it...hMm and of course they are my best pals!!we'll go though thick and thin as one...oh no..it is as threesome...ermm...sounds like charles angels? haha!
anyway i am like quite afraid about monday..there is that rehearsal and i am kinda freaked out because of someone already...what can i do?seems like nothing in the world...what can i say?i am like a mute at home....not even talking to anyone which i obviously dun't feel like doing so...dun ask me why cause i utterly dunno at all..and i really dun't...so what can i do?the com has become a tool taht i confide into..with alll the blogs and diaries...no wonders i dun feel like talking/..wells...so at this point of time...my fingers are so important..without them... can't play teh piano...without them...i can't type...and confide into the com.without them..i can't eat and do everything...sighs...how sad that i jsut came to realise how iportant my fingers are...it has become what i say a form of communication for me...how sad yahz?haiz...reika..u are right....where is me!?no this is one hundred percent not me at all...even the person sitting beside me knows taht but how?what's bothering me!?can't i tell!?hey am i totally mute!?something's wrong...anyway i dun care..i jsut do what i like i just feel how am i,i just think how i want and i just talk if i want...so that's my freaking mute life now...hmmm

Friday, May 13, 2005

going bonkas...and i really am...i just came back from library...wells...skool was...horrid...but wells iwent to skool real early today just to meet the people acting in scene three...wells...before that i was so stressed up on the bus...thinking if i would do wat i am suppose to...i know yesterday...i made jerusha real pissed because i was confused with everything in the world...i had so many roles to change yesterday and i was too tired to think and do anything...wells...today...i did it in the morning...and i am not so satisfied...it is not perfect and i can't let it be not!because i must not let jer disapponted...or else...she will go mad....haiz...life...so stressful...wells it is not only me...many of my darling buddies too...
hmM library..man...i really never felt so stressful in library before and this is like my first time being like that...haiz...i just feel like screaming at every single minute i am in there!the world was just crashing down on me again and being the only decor person there...it's all really crushing down on me...it was like once i entered the library...someone came to tell me that i have to do the articles...type what quotes and decorate them...and so many things...it is countless...and i just didn't felt like doing anything...if Jer wasn't there...i would have screamed!!!but what can i do!?it's life...tell me!!tell me!!!everyone!!!let go of me!!!i have got enough of everything...skool maths science eng chi hist dnt and EVERYTHING in the world!!!LET GO OF ME!!!problems are way piling up on me...it is never decreasing...never and never...they are increasing soo rapidly that i am so suffocated down under buildings...now...next week...rehearsal on monday morning...what can i say!?nothing much....i just want to cry out...can i?!NO i can't...do i have a choice?! NO i dun!do i have a room!?NO i dun..there is no where....totally no where that i can have my own quite and peaceful time...each time i felt bad...i had no one to turn to except God...my friends are out tehre...but i dun wan to give them an extra burden...utterly not...i can't cry when i want...i can't scream...what is this?!?i am so deprived of every single freedom that i need...and u call this life!?anyway...
ppl...music test next week...i have to say this for the LAST Time...anyone needs the songs or scales...please come and tell me....thanks...i will help ya out with everything...but please tell me or i won't know cause i am not God...i can't see through what u are thinking...sorry but i am very veyr mad nowvery very veyr mad...let me off!!!let me scream!!!WHY!!!i am like in a bottle!!!! *screams*!!!

Thursday, May 12, 2005

alright...today morning...i woke up super early just to transfer songs from hengyue's mp3 to mine and vici verca...wells hmm lesssons were far way boring...i was darn stress the whole day...can u believe it?!? THREE drama in a day!!!first one...literature...i had two roles...a mother and a wierdo speaking person...okay nvm the next one...history...i had to act as a student, and a communist!last one,library ...i had to be a hysterical person...like a mouse....alright..see i gotta change me personality like six times in three hours!!!i am going nuts...alright..now...which is my self?!?i am mixed up...okies..the first two drama went well...except the library one cause i guess i was very confused with myself the whole day...luckily it was ony a rehersal!or i am doomed!alright i shall talk abt the library one...in fact it is still fresh in memory as i jsut came home from that...alright here it goes!

i am in scene three for the play:IN DENIAL alright...and i got my character which is Hem. this mouse...in the book WHO MOVED MY CHEESE alright..when i got the script, i had no idea...utterly no idea how on earth am i suppose to act it out...wells...ppl...am i very hysterical in normal days?!?hmMm i can't seem to act it out..and what's more...i was so confused with everthing that is happening around me...that's y...and of course not only me...there are some who need to e real solemn but they can't..some who needs to be like a prof...but had problems too...i think mine is worst!!where's my GUTS??where is it?i need glucose seriously to get myself hysterical!and how am i suppose to!?! wells before i left, simin told me something which made me so darn stress...and i kept thinking abt it on the bus...she was like '.....the whole play is in your hands...whether it goes on well, depends on YOU!.....' okay...and i tell u...i almost cried on the bus....cause i was sooo darn stres abt it...y should it be me?y?y?y? though my character seems trival...it is so important...the line is the main thing that the whole script is all about...it is what the skit wants to depict...and yet...it anded in my hands...*sceams*
tml morning...i will no matter what...reach school at the earliest time that i can just to rehearse my part and the other...the performance it on the 25th may!!!i can't slack anymore...if it means everything...my lunch...recess or whatsoever...i will have to do it....alright? so simin...u needn't worry so much...i will turn up as i have to!

alright...then we had cell grp today too in skool...well...it was not bad...woship...we sang...power of ur love,i receive ur love...and i stand in awe of u....so wonderful...so spirit filled worship!!!woohoO!!!wells for semon, it was on love...and as i promise those who wanted it...i will and i will post it out now!!so...here it is...
verses to refer...[1 corinth 13] [matthew 5:44] [Galatians 1:4] [1 john 4:19] [1john 4:7-11] [john 3:16] [psalms 26-28].....

so...what is loVE?God's love is UNCONDITIONAL, full of forgiveness and is unselfish..it is also everlasting ...but how abt man?we are selfish..and conditional...and our love is never lasting..look!the difference between man and God's love it so big...and thus...we have much more to learn...according to the bible...the 2nd greatest comandment is to LOVE UR ENEMIES AS HOW YOU LOVE UR NEIGHBOURS...sounds easy ya?wait till u try out...it is never easy to follow unless u have GOd...we are born sinners and we need GOD..our GOd is great and able... according to a daily bread writer.. i quoted..''it is not easy to understand the depth of GOd's love for us.Because of our PRIDE and FEAR,we fail to grasp how undeserving we are and how free his love is''

some of u might think...'why didn't Jesus come down of the cross? why should he die for us?' well there are FOUR reasons to this and here is goes.....

firstly...HE STAYED ON THE CROSS TO WASH OUR SINS...look GOd is so good...just because to save us underserving sinners...he died for us to redeem all and all of our sins...he even stripped himself naked to do so...he suffered for us...but do all of us cherish it?think abt it urself...are u guilty of it?

secondly...TO FREE US FROM BONDAGE...look...there is utterly NO satan that can go beyond the cross...[1john3:8]''He who does what is sinful of the devil. because the devil has been sinning from the beggining. the reason the SON OF GOd appeared was ti destroy the devil;s work''there is no one that can go to heaven...except through HIM!!![john 3:16]''for God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son that whoever believed in himshall not perish but have eternal life.'' look...this is how much God loves us...

thirdly...TO HEAL OUR SICKNESS...practicallt everyday JEsus is healing the sick...there are many truths of JEsus healing the sick...even up till now...enter a healing crusade and u will see the amazing work of GOd...

lastly...TO REDEEM US FROM EVERY CURSE AND FAILURE...[galatians 3:13]''christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us.for it is written-'Cursed is everyone who is hung on a tre...' '' what is a curse?u might think...it is actually a continuous defeat and failure...

so in conclusion...JESus is a LOVING GOD,,,Love has an evidence and JEsus demonstrated his Love by dying on the cross for us...

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Have u ever wondered?who was the one who created mother nature?who was the one who created U?i bet most of u haf had at least the slightest thought about that happening but still many refuses to admit the true God...-Jesus. But have u also wondered what is your main purpose in life?Is it all about scoring straight As with no attitude or otherwise?Look no further the answer will be revealed soon and Here's the bridge that will clase the gap to a more meaningful and a purpose driven life!

As known...none of us man are perfect...BUT...did u know that we were once perfect?There was a time of perfection,where mankind and animals of the land,sea and air lived in perfect harmony.God created Adam and Eve,the first two humans ever on earth.they had a perfect relationship with mother nature and of course,God himself.They were in the Garden of Eden where trees of each species blossomed and beared wonderful fruits.And of that. GOd told them that they are Not allowed to take any fruit from the TREE OF THE KNOWLEDGE OF GOOD AND EVIL. and look! mankind were perfect and it means NO EVIL. and if u dun eat the fruit that existed on that tree,u will see,hear,and know no evil.isn't that amazing?

[GENESIS 2-3]refer to the bible or go to any online bible!fOR the story of aDam anD evE!

But unfortunately there was a problem,and because of this..it cause the great down fall of mankind. There was one day while Eve was strolling in the garden,the devil(satan) in the form of a serpent convinced her into eating the fruit and claiming that upon eating she would be like God and hereyes would opn.The sepent being more cunning than the other animals God had created said:'Did God really said youn musn't eat from any tree in the garden?' Seeing the fruit was pleasing to the eye, and also,desirable for gaining wisdom,she took some and ate it. Then passed the fruit to her husband. Adam, to eat. That very day,After eating,their eyes were open.and they saw wat they didn't know.They saw that they themself were naked and immediately took some fig leaves to cover their body. That very day.both heard the sound of the Lord God and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden as they said that they were naked....from then on.God told the serpent that He will greatly increase the pain in childbearings and with it,she will give birth to children....

So,we all have sinned against God...doing things that are not pleasant to GOd's holy eyes...we fell short of the glory of God. it is stated in the bible that we were created in God's likeness to be like HIm but because 'allhave sinned and fallen short of the glory of God' that simply means thatwe can no linger be like Him .Also it was stated that 'the wages of sin is death' and what does it means?it means that we are condemned to eternal sufferings in Hell after we die?but that doesn't means that ALL OF US are condemed as The good news is that we are saved from this eternal suffering only if we believe in CHrist and accept HIm as our LOrd and Saviour.

About 2000 years ago.GOd sent his one and only son, Jesus Christ to die on the cross of calvary to redeem all of our sins,[john3:16]'for God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son that whoever belives in him shall not perish but have eternal life' on the third day of his death, (ressuraction)Jesus rose up from the dead and conquered sin and death for YOU! back to the bible.it is said that 'if u confess with your mouth,Jesus is Lord,and believe in your heart that God raised Him fromt he dead, YOU will be saved!' so what are u waiting for now!?evidence is in front of you,JEsus is the one and only true God..he said [john 14:6]'i am the way,the truth , and the life,no one comes to the father except through me' would u rather risk a moment of hesitation and end up suffering for Eternity?

So if u wanna be saved from this condemnation, it is really really simple. You might say that U dun deserve to be saved at all cause of ur countlesssins.but God offered this redemption for EVERYONE.and NOThing can scrub our heart clean of sins EXCEPT JEsus'ts blood!. He gave man the will todecide what they wan their lfe to be as he is such a gentleman who will not interfere or force.He gave YOU the freedom to choose. so i beseech you.Are uwilling to make the choirce to day?

IF u are, all u need to do is to pray this really simple prayer RIGHT NOW!
Dear Lord Jesus, i admit i am a sinner and i need your forgiveness. i believe that u died for my sins on the cross,i now open the door of my life and inviteyou in to be my saviour and lord. thank you Lord for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life.Take control of my life from this minute onwards.make me the kind of person u want me to be.i pray this in YOur name,Amen

And now that u have prayed this prayer, u know what? u are now a child of the almighty God and u are free from bondage and will not suffer in the HEll for eternity but instead,join the heavenly angels and God Himself in heaven after u have gone from this earth.and eternal life for u! so go get a bible today and read the wondeful word of God. Then,find a spirit filled,bible believing church where u are comfortable in and start attending it regularly!(U are most welcome to our church which is KAM KWONG CHRISTIAN CHURCH ASSEMBLY OF GOD)Welcome to Your new life in Christ,my friend,FastenYour seat belt and get ready for the greatest adventure that God had in stored for u in ur life!=)
(u can tag on my board or email me at funkycrystal72@hotmail.com if u haf prayed this prayer or if u are interested in joining our church! May God Bless You!

okays well we haf come out with everymotto:living in the presence of the Holy Spiritthing!!for the cell group in skool...it is...John3:16 youth group..moto:living in the presence of the Holy spirit We Love Jesus!isn't it cool?also we have came up with something like a 'tv commercial' so funny and it's like a 'cheer'

wanna know more?Join Us...!all are welcome to the majestic kingdom of God...come and experience it NOW!You..yes YOU! will NEVER regret your life having to accpet HIm!as your christ and saviour!so wat are u waiting for?come on down and join us in the fabulous experience!

praising and worshipping GOd is the most fabulous thing that you will ever be able to do in ur life...it is much better that going to an arcade...having to spend loads of money ther...end up being influenced in the negative way...or rather,stead of staying in ur house on sundays...why not...join a church!U WILL NOT LOOSE OUT!!!and u really won't...wells tml is sermon!!whoosh!i am so excited!!!muahah for worship during cell in skol...we are gonna sing and worship...woth hilsongs!!!woho1!!they rawk like really off my socks man!!!hahha i am so excited...Jesus rawks and He rawks...the youths are firing...for God...!!!Are You?

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

alright juniors!thanks for 'activating' my tag board and making the rst of the tags missing...boo...anyway it's good to be enthu!hahas!these are the tags some are missing already too bad
nicole: hwee yee!!how dare you spell my name wrongly!!
nicole: my b-e-a-utiful name is ruined by you,you alone!!lalala..
nicole: u stl owe hy letter and i owe you letter..so better pay off debys..
brroocooli: -conks-
brroocooli: -tickles-
brroocooli: -waves- letter mine leh
brroocooli: hahah
brroocooli: -vomits
brroocooli: i love maths
brroocooli: love netball
brroocooli: i m boredddd
brroocooli: niOcle tagtagtag
brroocooli: nicole tagtagtagtagtag
nicole: yes hy what?
brroocooli: -nurses my ankle-
brroocooli: nth i m juz SUPER bored
nicole: oei!!hy u purposely arh??keep spelling my name wrongly!!kick you arh!!
nicole: i'm blogging and helping my fren ask senior smth u also force me to tag..patience!!
bbrrocoli: boredboredbored
brrocoli: poor ankle of mine
wow ppl!this is soo enthu hahah wells...tag anytime if u want haha!thanks ppl for chatting!

Monday, May 09, 2005

boo!today is such a busy day...boo....running all abt looking for ppl..like..juniors...friends...mortals...angels...tchs and wadeva lahz i am soo pissed!!!wadeva okay?sorry dudes...especially ppl sitting around me...sorry i know..u all kept asking y am i not bubbly...why am i not cracking jokes like i usually do going craz laughing like a hyena...sorry...i am really busy and thngs are going over my head...dramatisation...test...exams...work...filing...piano...choir...and everything that is occupying me...are bringing me down into the deep wells...dun worry i promise i will finish everything as soon aspossible kay?dun be sad...the jokes will be back soon once i am done with pissing with work! smile friends!!!=) i am still here...dun worry so much kayz?i am soo super fine...like a human..who is like a bee!!
wells...true..it's busy today..first thing went to skool...history CA....this is so horrid... couldn't do it...my mind was a total blank and i really dunno how on earth i can pass that paper..my mind wasn't there...my soul wasn't there...every thing isn't there at all...except my physical body...it is freaking..very very freaking...any ways...PE..was horrid to..my mood was ruined..i felt so nostalgic the whole day feeling nausea every now and then...what's wrong with me?where's my bubble self?where's my jumpy self?i really hate hate hate and hate what i am now...i can't stand it..i tried smiling...and be active..but it seemed all like plastic and soo fake...i can't smile...am i serious!?! i dun believe it either...instead of me humouring ppl...i am making my darlings worried abt me...sigh...i am so useless...wells...went to the library during recess..simin baked cae...wells it tasted quite nice!!!quite yummy though...and that cheered me up a little cause i have long wanted some cake...glucose?wells..hmm thanks simin...wonderful cake!!!and a few of us had some mini party in the librarians work room...eating chips...orange squash...cake and sweets and junks...that's how i spent my recesss....not only that...i was rushing to eveyr where cause so many ppl were calling me...the library printer broke down so i had to help repair...and make the printer feel good...hmm...then rushed to the com lab to print my work but it was all gone from my email...this is freaking...i want to scream now...close ur ears...*AHHHHH* alright i am done..open it now..okay..continue...
after recess...had art..that lesson is freaking...how on earth can my freaking art tch stop nagging?can't we haf our own ideas?it's art...she herself can say that art is all abt imagination and creativity but she is restricting us from everything...and we must follow her idea???wat the!!!okay nvm...had mother tongue...phew i thought i would fail chinese...but i passed!!!by 0.6 marks...big deal...at least i didn't fail...okay ppl u may think it is lame...but i can't do anything now...i failed my paper....my compo pulled me up..alright i am stupid can?!?okay then we had english...got back our vocab test!...well i screwed it up too...today was horrid though...i cried alot...almost every lesson except PE...i felt so depressed...tears just automatically stream down my face...wat can i do?nothing but to bury it under my hands...feel so hopeless sometimes... any way i went parkway with nicole my darling junior..to release myself from that tense enviroment...hmm didn't did much...went mini toons and many other shops lo...i didn't brought much money that's y...so sad right?yahz i know...but i can't do anything also lohz...well at least i realeased my self a little...that's better than nothing ya noe?okay...i shall end this day online...till as long as i want!!!i know there is maths spring test tml...but...i cannot tense myself any further or else i will explode and my heart lungs and every internal organs and red blood cell will fly out of me...

Sunday, May 08, 2005

mother's day

hey there!happy mothers day to all the mothers out there!u all deserve a break!LOVE YA LOTS MUMMY!!!well we had celebration today...my granny...my grandfather,my mother,my mother's bro,my mother's sis...me.bro,my mum's sis's three children,my bro's three children and his wife haha!alot ya?three generations...haha so cute...went heartland mall to shop..hmmm i took some neos with my bro...he's reaction so slow...tha'ts y the pics were really horrid...but never mind hahah brought my mummmy around heartland...she was just like a teenager...really but she really looks like as if she is my sis...haha...going into mini toons...she look just like a teen!so cute!she was looking at many things.!!!hmm earrings...socks...necklace and many stuff!hmm went to many many shops...and after meeting them...we went to this particular shop..it's sooo fantastic...EVERYONE of us bought at least something from there!it was really wonderful...their goods were of it's own class!i bought this necklace...there is a cross...a treble clef and quaver note...wel i can always take any of them out anytime and put on another necklace...it was really cool!we ate alot...the things all added up to more than $150 !!wow..u can indeed imagine how much we ate...we didn't entered a restaurant!but just some hawker centre which is some how like a restaurant...we ate many dishes...shark fin...veg...steam boat...and many many many things...the dinner was great...we all really bonded well...hmm may be after i upload u all can go and see the pics!they look really cute!haha...yummy....ate GELATO ice cream...once scoope for $2.80 so ex...haha but at least i get to taste it...my aunty treated us...that's y...wells...it was really fantastic...the shopping and stuff...though we didn't bought many things.but i really enjoyed myself...as i don't get to see my relatives that often....miss them lots..haha esspecially the young kids...haha so cute!they are really adorable...haha...hmm i have so much to say...but just afraid that it is never ending..so i shant' continue mucH!
sad though..i didn't get to go church...cuas ened to celevrate lo...so sad right?aiyo...i miss all my church mates....i miss youth fellowship...i miss everyone...i miss worshipping God...i miss and i miss...another person in particular!!!**** wells...i know i will get to see him..,perhaaps online?well at least we can meet some how ya...hahaha there is history CA tml...i haven't studied yet lehz how? die die...so scard!but...dun care...i feel that my life is jsut like a debris...u can't ask me y..cause i dunno... well...take care everyone...miss ya lots!*hugs*

Saturday, May 07, 2005

soRry sister...i know u are really disappointed!i really forgot totally abt our joys we had together...i was really pissed yesterday...sorry...u didn't cry bucket ful ya?chill...i;m alright...like u said..i have the Holy Spirit...and he is my comforter...i Love Him alot..i have God...i have u! without him...i wouldn't be wat i am this minute...i wouldn't be a developed person...without him,...my life would be full of blunders...full of sins...full of hatred...and the word 'love' would not exist...JESUS, I LOVE YOU!!u made my life...u blessed me...and i will never forget u..neither will i abandoned u...for u are great..you are mighty wonders Lord...there is no one else like you...*hugs tightly* i'll never forgetful our joyful time we had...almost everyday...wat we haf went through together...jie...i love u too!!!
wells...today was...boring?!? woke up early in the morning...wat did i do?!? man! i am such a naughty gal..have not had my devotion time with God...sorry God..i ought to do it soon..and my day will not be boring...=) the joy of the lord is my strength!i shall not be weary...
wells..hadn't done much...lazing around my bed...so comfortable...hahas love it man!!!well...at alot...haha i gained like 1 pound..awww...that's so sad...well partly because i have ate too much yesterday during the party??haha actually...having to think of it..i didn't ate alot except some junk,satay,ketupat and soft drinks...it was okay lar...farewell for the sec fours...haha we forgotten about some one then all of us started...muahah...luckily i didn't...*phew*...wells...took some pics..haha did many dun things lahz...hmm so fun ...today...
haiz tml can't go church!!not fair!!i have to go see my granny...she look really young...my mother's generation has a 'look young' genes...hahas well simply..my mum looks like my sis...my granny looks like my mother..my great granny looks like my granny...see!!!this is so col and when u go out...ppl will be like saying to me 'oh u haf a sister?' and i get like insulted!!the!!!shows that i look old!?hmmm never mind lahz...God created me so i accept !and love how i look!!haha...i love Him...wells..i decided...i should haf something like...the verse of the day!?haha that would be really encouraging and good of course!!!haha hmm...Jesus loves me yes i know for the bible tells me so... hmmm later i gotta go out... to buy cake for the mothers!!!haha well...so sad i really wanna go church lehz...i will defunately miss it haiz...i love to praise GOd...for he is worthy...of every single of my praise!

Friday, May 06, 2005

sorrows surrounding me...joy of a handful

still in a bad mood..i really can't do anything..today i cried like XIAO in skool lahz..flunk the idiotic science...firstly...warning! i am in a foul mood today so dun come pissing me off or else ur ear drums will break!!wadeva it is,...i am pissed or else u will be screamed by me like wat i did to my bro!!!I AM FOUL TODAY!!!wadeva...can i not live>!???i really hate it...it's a hassle...i am really sick of studying...failing and wadeva!!!it's not my niche! can i please QUITE SKOOL??? I HATE SKOOL!!!I HATE WAT I AM LEARNING!!!I HATE HOME EC EVEN MORE!!!I HATE IT!!!!I HATE MATHS I HATE CHINESE I HATE ENGLISH I HATE SCIENCE I HATE HISTORY I HATE EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD!!!I HATE SKOOL TO THE CORE!!!I WANT JESUS I WANT GOD!IF I EVER CAN QUITE SKOOL I WILL DO IT IMMEDIATELY!!!STUDYING REALLY SUCKS!!!I FAILED SCIENCE!!! HAPPY??HAPPY???HAPPY???WADEVA WADEVA WADEVA...LAUGH ALL U WANT...I DUN CARE ALREADY..JUST DUN COME PISSING ME OFF!OR UR EAR DRUMS WILL BE GONE! WADEVA I JUST DUN CARE!!!I RAELLY HATE IT...THE POST WILL BE IN CAPS!!I DUN CARE I WANT TO SHOUT I WANT TO SCREAM I WANT TO SCRAM...DAMN!!!I DUN CARE!!WADEVA IT IS..NOT HAPPY GO OFF OKAY???WADEVA I AM ANGRY OKAYY??HAPPY???JUST GET OFF IF U FREAKER DUN WANT TO CONTINUE...PRESS THE X BUTTON ABOVE AND THAT'S IT!!I HATE IT!!!WADEVA...CRYING IS CRAZY NOW...I'M A GLASS..OKAYY??HAPPY ??sO FRAGIAL!!!OKAY!!!HAPPY??OKAY LAUGH LAUGH AND LAUGH!!I DUN CARE!!!NOT HAPPY JUST SCRAM!SCRAM AND SCRAM!I HATE IT!I WANT TO BE NUMB!!!SCREAM!!!!!!I AM NOT GOING TO CONTINUE OR U WILL HEAR MY SCREAM FROM WHEREEVER U ARE!
okay the handful of joy...had the sec four farewell party today...not bad lahz....de stress!!well...oh ate alot of things and i was full at the end of the thing...poured green tea on si min...uniform was wet...she better wash it..or else ants will arrive at her door step...dun feel like continuing..so bb...*pissing off*

Sunday, May 01, 2005

MAy day...

hmm have not been blogging for many days...wasn't in the mood to and i didn't wanted to scold anyone...hmmm but well..i amstress relieve today...it's MAY DAY!!!and our church went to east coast park!!!muahaha..okayy...i guess..i have lots to blog today!!!

reached there at 9am...hmm...haha...had a little open prayer...then ice breaker...every one was so not enthu yet..including me...haha probably because it was morning...hmm...haha but wells we played the blanket game...and...'what' and 'huh' game haha before that we had a self intro...just name lahz...haha...aunty rena so enthu!!she was like 'hi i am aunty rena' muahahah got a shock..cause i was dreaming...haha...wells...hmm the 'what' and 'huh' game was a little more awakening...haha....the same person was blur..haha...almost got forfeit...haha...i mean aunty rena...muahahah...

we had praise and worship...sang a number of songs...haha...no sound at all...haha...still dreaming...haha hmm wells...then we had message...haha i was way enjoying the warm bath of morning sun...it was fantastic!!!but pastor lau said it was bad for me...so..i change place lor...well...but it was so fantastic...at least i managed to have one hour and forty five minutes of sun bath!!it's very nice..so warming...i never felt so good under the sun before...i still want it!!!okayy...then we had a little break!i was listening to my mp3...

haha okayy then we had games...three of them...firstly was captain's ball...hmmm was in martin's group...haha our group rawk lahz..haha but i can't defend the tall ppl..and they are really tall...martin and reuben jump really high!!!hahas...and reuben was way showing his fantastic skils...woohoo!!!go reubs!!!okayy second game...called 'fil it up' haha we had to collect water form the sea with bottles which has eight holes in it...haha..our group won...haha...told ya we rawked!!!haha...hmm...last game...passing rubber band with the straw...haha i was the 'model' reub was the 'model' for the other group..haha so cute...*awwww* haha martin was hanging rubber bands on my ear and fingers hahaha...so funny...reub can't hold his rubber bnads in place...haha...and it dropped..for this game...WE won again!!!haha....

hmm then we had freee time...haha i went to rent bike...and started cycling..the!!hmm...then went to mcdonalds....haha...saw char,elim,and yee kei...haha...they had fries..so i ate them hahah...saw aunty rena and reub too..haha he was with his friends...haha so cute...well...

okayy i really have to thank jx...for leading me the wrong direction...and we ended up LOST for forty five minutes...okayy and we had to cycle non stop..intensive training??haha and we were so scared..we started to sing 'celebrate'....haha so funny jx was beating the rhythm and i was singing haha so funny lahz..haha but the Holy Spirit managed to calm me down...hahah...i am sooo sun burnt...and i reakky am...first time ever...my whole face is RED...okayy...but at least u enjoyed myself..haha me and vann went to the rock and sat on top...we screamed and screamed!!!non stop..i felt really good...really really good...de streess... i want to do that again!!!it's really good!!!hmmm many things happen... i didn't write them down haha oh yes! credits...

aunty rena-photographer , jiaxing-'intensive training' in disguise, vann-accompanying me to scream...and not she has a sore throat, church-for organising the event, God-for making the fantastic weather felt with His warmth in it..and many more...sorry if i didn't mention...but thanks alot ppl! u all rawk!and have made my day...not only made my day good...but FANTASTIC!!! thanks alot!!!

 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
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