Sunday! hee...just came back from cycling wth vann and my bro..hee...so funny...we cycled since like six...and came back at 8 plus...hee...so wonderful though..=) anyways...i had a debate with my mum before i was able to go church..she was making things difficult for me by asking me do things which are impossible..totally imposible...like getting a karang gunei...to our house and something...is like IMPOSSIbLE...but...well ya...it's GOd's grace that i was still able to go church in the end...reaching there just on the dot before worship started! =) thank u Jesus.! hahaas...and then...yup..it's just went well...and...yes...it was farniee..hahas...the hongkong ppl are so sweet! hahas i've got a lipgloss from them! hahas!!and their note are farniee too! though short...
just got some 'task' to do...from pastor steven...actually not that diff la..just need some wisdom..heee...our church's gonna celebrate mooncake festival...and the youths are putting up some performance...and i gotta organise..hee...but reub can't make it! that's like super sad can?there wouldn't be enough boys to sing..and all ppl can hear is some low pitch voice! hahas...actually he can sing...hahas..not gonna elaborate much...or it's not gonna end! =) heeheeeheee....
anyways...yup...heee...super cute la...
reub is guarding the camp...heeeheee...so farnie...and that's a very relax job in my opinion.cause he has so much time...hahas

hEy there! hee...yup...had cross country today..hahas...so cute right?hahas..just joking...wells.ya...i did enjoyed myself today though it's like hot..hee..wells...yup...i love the earrings i had today..and during prayer meeting after it ended...prastor lau was like saying in chinese ''you earrings are very beautiful'' hahas...so funny...and i was like er....hee....diaoz...nothing to say hahas..this is just a picture that my friend took..haas..my hair wasn't nice la..but..hahas...so cute!hahs...not myself cute la...but i also dunno wat's cute! hahas...so long never do this kind of action for so long already...but i know that when i was young...whenever i take pictures,i always tilt my head! hahas and put a finger at my cheek!hahas...well who knows...maybe i was feeling childish at that time? or prerhaps..i'm missing my childhood days! hahas!=))
JEsus so rawk my world...wells...ya...he makes me happy...hahas...sometimes..i really think that this certain kind of ppl really dun exist anymore...the positive side..yup...u won't understand wat i mean...unless...heee...hahas..that kind of person is really ike extinct..even some ppl says so...hahas i shant say more othewise...heee....lalala....

hmmm...today...i thank God for everything. there's so much that i want to thank God for..HE's been in my life with me...taking my sorrows and hurts....yup...it's like midnigt now..and i'm still online..tml is cross country until 6! man! this is like so late and that simply means that i can't go to chuch! that's so ad...avctually i can but i'll be very late and that's very very maluing! hee...wonder if i still should go...is like im gonna embarrass myself there only..and besides i dun want to go home alone with my friend and mother..that's lke...argh...something that i really dun like...going home with adults...aww man! haiz...no choice...u know is like there's so many things that ihave to overcome...to seek God wholeheartedly...there's really alot of obstacles i haVE to like overcome...well...it's a price to pay...am i willing to?haiz...that's call soul searching...
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so tired already..going to sleep...take care dudes...

in school now waiting for choir to start firstly..if u are in a good mood...dun continue reading...because i just felt like blogging and tell my sorrows to this blog...i dunno why...but i'm feeling very down for no reason...is like just now when i was having lunch..i wasn't feeling good at all...all the bad memories just came back to me suddenly...and i just felt like crying....i just felt like leaving school...i really do not like it at all...i dread choir. i dread everything...everything just seems as if the world was going to falll...my results...and SOME PPL...it seems as if my future was ruined in this school...but why why??everything....is like during lunch time...i saw this choir member...and i just felt like crying...why is this? i really dun get it...i'm just trying to hide how i feel...but...it never seemed possible...yesterday during choir...i was holding back my tears ....i dunno why but i just want to cry if i have anything got to do with choir. i dun enjoy it at all...i love singing...i try my best to enjoy it...but i grow to dread it each practice..it isn't only me who thinks this way but many others...wat has choir done?why can't i just let it go??must it stay on me forever until i leave this school?i'm not happy at all..
the bad memories...nothing happy came back to me today...it's all the sad things...not sad...but demoralising...i thought my hurts were all far forgotten...but...it came back to me...of all why must it be today ? why why?why???there's choir today...bad enough already and this must come back today?
God...help me...i really need you...i just need you...take away all my hurts...my sorrows...

JEsus...there's none other like u
take my pain...
take my hurts...
that i would be renewed...
you are all that i adore...
ther'es none like u...
all of my days
i want to praise
the wonders of ur mighty love
u are my comfort
and my strength
a refudge in times of trouble
Jesus..come in my now.
fill me with ur peace and Joy...
i need them lord....

hahas! just came back from a cycling spree! hahas cycled for more than an hour! and it's fun! hahas i like to go over to the terrace side to cycle! the road is super broad! hahas...and the slopes are super thrilling! hahas...i love it! in love with it! hahas....hee...went over to my friend's house there! hahas...let her take a break...from her study! hahas O levels not easy leh....i see all the seniors i scared already lOr!hahas...see them...like no break from their studies like that...i hope i will not be like that leh...really lor...hear them say wat eyelid want to drop...study until feel like committing suicide...hai yo...i got nothing to say...but seniors..if u all reading this....i just have something to say....jiayou k?GOd's with u...the strength is with you....trust GOd that u would do well kaes? dun stress urself so hard...kaes?hahas need joke come to me...hahas...i lend joke book...hahas...heee...just joking la! hahas..but yupp...just jiayou...hee remember to take a break...rest ur eyes..hahas...lalala...i'm being a grandma for once! heee....

today's prayer meeting was fine...hahas...God spoke again...and He always tell me to do wart he tells me to! hahas...heee....so...i shouldn't be afraid...my name means bright and pure one...and i must be the light of everyone around me...i wanna be the light that shines..for GOd...

hEYy there!tday's Sunday! =)) so nice! went to church and today i have to thank GOd for waking me up so early today..not say that He woke me up...but i wasn't tired when i woke up today...and it was like 7...so i was super early for prayer meeting la! =)) hahas...thank you Jesus...hahas and we totally enjoyed ourseleves...it's like somegift exchange day cause i received so many things...certificate ..letter from eileen,note book from reuben and a pen as well...so sweet...i mean..not only i was touched by him la...eileen also..and i almost cried...of course...both of us immed adopted him as our brother...really...but ya...never knew reub was that nice...is like i never met such a caring brother before...-weeps-i've got so much to thank GOd today.. thank GOd for giving me the courage to song lead today ...and everything....thank GOd for the confidence that was givin to me by God...thank GOd for putting brother reuben into my life...it made an impact..a very good influence...

i'm high for God today! feeling so excited for the whole day! =) i have so much to thank God as usual...=) hahas...He has been with me for the whole day....i thank God for givng me the wisdom,confidence,strength and courage to overcome so many things today...i thank Him for helping me in everything that i do...because certainly, i dun and will never believe that i can be wat i am today if God wasn't in my life.i thank GOd for giving me the courage to put across wat He wants me to tell reuben today. and God was the one who was with me...telling me wat i should tell hIm....and it was like surprsingly...today during the prayer meeting sharing, the senior pastor shared exactly the same thing i shared with Reuben today! =)) thank God! that was so much of an encouragement to me! =))
anyways...hahas...yup...super excited! GOd's doing great works in our midst...and i totally agree with pastor lau that we must be there at least ten minutes earlier to prepare our hearts for the Lord and quieten ourselves down...hahas...learnt so much today..and it's a very very slack day....was yawning throughout the school day but when i was sharing GOd's words to reuben..,i felt so energetic..Praise the Lord.=))
anyway...thanks reub for that wonderful encouragement! =)

hEyy!!! heee...so excited for God..there's so many testimonials that i have got to share! and they are all really great! my God is a living God!!!!=))) and...here i am....gonna testify His's glory hahas...anyways...i want to thank God for healing me after my 2.4 run...without Him...i dun think i would ever get healed that quickly...it was an instant healing! my stomach was so pain until i couldn't even walk a step! and i almost fainted...but i thank God for healing me...it was like after i prayed in my heart...and a few seconds later...i was healed..the pain was gone!!!u see wat my Go can do???miracles!!!!and i thank God for it!!! =)) and...also i thank God for always reminding me wat i should and should not do....He's brought peace and joy into my life and delivering it to me ....and using me to bless others in return...i thank Him for that too....HE's always been with me when i needed Him most...even when everything's fine..He would also be by my side helping me make the wisest decision...it's undeniable...cause Jesus is great....

HE's the only one who is willing to go through thick and thin with me... the only one who showers unconditional love on me...telling me that i should not be afraid...

He's the one who releases my stress and turning them into peace and joy...

HE's the one who is always by my side...telling me not to be afraid of obstacles...and to overcome them in His name...

HE's the one who heals me physically and emotionally when all the hurts are in me...He was te one who took them away...when i am ill...HE would be there to heal my and take my sickness away...so that i may continue with life.

He's the one who gives me the confidence to perform task that i'm afraid of...

He's the one...whom i will adore...and worship my whole life!
thank you JEsus for being with me...=))

backk! hahas =)Jesus! He reigns...!hahas....well today i got back my math and science results...yup...science....hahas...so funny...i dind't really did well...so sad...is like a just ass only...and it's sad...hahas....wait! why am i laughing? hahas....wells...ya...math dun want to say la...though i got full marks for one of the test...but the previous term one i failed so...not so good la....so sad right? anyway...yup...i must learn to be bold...and speak wat GOd wants me to...instead of keepin it to myself...yup...i feel very bad leh...hAiz...but...yup...God forgives..and forget. HE changes us each time we sin....He mould us into a different person each time..and i can feel it...wat martin said today...was really right. but it somehow pierced me when he said...even char thinks so.well for me i know it's because i disobeyed God...by not saying wat i'm told to do so...haiz...yup...i know la....feel so bad but...i must learn from this mistake and just take the faith and do it.carry it with me...and just do wat God wants me to...=) right?
everyone makes mistakes...and so do i...i'm not perfect for goodness sake..hahas...*screams* reuben is back! and he came for the prayer meeting! i'm so happy to hear that he said it was his first time esperiencing such great presence of God...and wells...yup....just hope that he'll have many testimonies to share too! =) GOd's great!

hihi!!back from church! =) smiles!hahas enjoyed myself with God...and my beloved church youthies! hahas...We're one big loving family!!!All so so so loved by Jesus! =) hahas...brought a new friend to church today...and yupp...pray that she'll stay...hahas...it's gonna be fun in our church and infact it's already so so so fun! =) hahas...super high now cause i'm eating Hot and Spicy potato chips hahas...just had some cravings for heaty food...although i know that the weather is already very hot...hahas church camp at the end of the year...i wonderf if mummy allow me to go! but i guess not...so i'm prepared for her answer...if she say yes...then good lar...if not...i'll just stay in Singapore lOr...wat to do....*crunches a chip into mouth*so super tasty! hmmm....feel like going cycling...*fiddlediddle* feeling so fat! hahas....shall wait for little vann vann's reply....and yup...reub is coming back at like five in the afternoon...(according to the sister) and hahas...so glad that he came back in one piece....cause that was wat he kinda told me before he left..that he want to come back in one piece! hahas God bless him!!He's everywhere...and everywhereu go...He's with U!!!=))
boredom is killing me now! there's no one at home...that's why i super feel like going out! hahas...not in any mood to study! Sunday is Lord's day...it's the day of rest...*ah...choo!*hahas...-that's the result of eating spicy chips and sitting in front of the air con ...that's two different temperature in me! muahaha...
and yes!!during the ice breaker time...we played the animal version of concentration...hahas...and bro timothy sabo me! and i was the first one to kena! hahas...then rhena...then elim then jiaxing! hahas...but in the end...rhena kena..hahas...though everyone tried to somehow sabo elim...heex...and today is jiaxing's first time songleading the youth! hahas...(shhh....i haven't done mine yet..=)) hahas...and he was doing real fine...he needs encouragement...and he can do well already! GO gor gor! You can do it! =) hmmm...left me ...and van...hahas both of us help until we forgot to song lead ourself...heex....let's see who's the lucky one that the pastor choose to go next...hahas....
i'm super duper loved by JEsus..=)))))))

hEyy there! i'm back!=)hmmm yup hahas this week had been really nice...and i super love it though it's like boring...becasue i only need to go to school for TWO Days!!that's a super good news to me! hahas i dun like schoo at all...but i'm forced to go by the goverment...so wat choice do i have? anyway...yup...the thought that i'll be going to chuch at the end of the day brightens up my day! and it makes me look forward to everything till that time! =)
i'm in love with God...and of course my beloved church...it's seriously my second home...and going there is a wonderful time...and experience to be able to experience God there...i've experience God...i've seen God changed so many ppl in church...so many of them...and it's really wonderful.....He changed...and i thank God for moulding me..into a better person each time...i thank God for everything...becasue He's been always with me everytime when i needed Him...even when i'm alright...He's stil there to help me make decisions...
God revealed alot this week...and yesterday when i was very very down...He let me feel the peace that i needed..He gave me the strength...to face many things...and He said that during the process that He's gonna mould me...it will be very very painful...and it would hurt alot alot...so...yup...i know...and i know that God would be with me...
i can't wait .... to bring more ppl to christ...so that they would be saved...from all eternal suffering and instead... they would enjoy the privilages in heaven that GOd have granted them with...
i really wonder how is it that ppl would then come to believe that the Lord JEsus Christ died for all of us...i wonder how is it that they would then believe....only fools does not admit that there's God...well....thinking of this really make me angry...it seriously does...
ppl who are not saved....think a second time..

HAPPY BDAE SINGAPORE...
so sad i'm not in NDP this year....*sobs* it really is so fun....to participate.not watch...
anyway...yup...came back from prayer meeting and...ya...God revealed alot..and i cried alot....alot...i really never cried so much before during prayer...and today i cried so much... JESUS LOVES ME....i must remember this.
there's so much that i have to do...and He also said that in the process of bringing ppl to Christ...i'll be facing alot of critisism...and those ppl will criticise me because i love God too much...that's persecution and ya...it's already happening....so..God...i need ur strength to overcome things that i can't...

God is so loving...His presence is wonderful...i wish i can stay in church and pray for at least four hours everyday...i love talking to God...communicating with the real God...one and only real God...

yesterday...SUNDAY! hahas went to FOP... it's super superduper cool....i really love it so much...next year must go hahas...and i've learnt my lesson not to wear low waist jeans..hahas cause when u jump it's terrible..Lolx...Hillsongs really rawked!!delerious not that good..planet shakers better...compared to them...and i got a seat so so so so near the stage...is just like 2m away!!!super super happy...and that's a rather close up look of Darlene Zschech.!!!hahaas..she rawk!!her voice is rather sweet...and ya..compared to delerious...hahas!
anyway...back to school...today we celebrated national day and it's boring la...but having to see classmates wearing traditional costumes is fun! my camera went low bat...couldn't take pics..sickening ...but...ya....i'm just happy...cause today school end early....and there's no prefect to go around telling u...''black rubber band...socks...'' and stuff la...hahas it's freedom...but i feel wierd letting down my hair...wearing slip on shoes...hahas casue i'm not used to it! =)
anyways....charlie and the chocolate factory rocks! hahas it's super funny...the pumpkin that the boy stepped on seems like it's crispy..perhaps it's made of sweet....hahas and the sadly the squirrels aren't for sale to that little gal lOlx...and there's many scenes which are nice too...like the chewing gum one....hair gum? hahas so wierd.,..and the golden ticket! =P
nothing much to talk about...can't wait to go back to church ...i super love it... though the place ain't that well furnished...the presence of God is most important...=)
oh yes yes...i bought the CHC album too....so cool so cool! their music is so nice! =)actually s buy for my friend one...but leh i not enough money so...i buy for myself first! hees..
the songs inside are like w o n d e r f u l ...hahas i like all of them...esp for a few...i'm in love with it...i mean it's cool....alright...my vocab is running low...cause i'm speechless to describe...

hihi! back again! i'm in school having science this time and yup...hahas finish already can play other things hahs so good right?lalalas....hmmm i'm already missing church....i love that place too much....i mean yup..becasue i get to go there and pray everyday hahs! =) so cool right?
prayer that changes life...and ya...Jesus lives and rawks my world!=)
later have NAPFA!!!!*Screams* i'm feeling super lazy today and how do u expecet me to do? i dun think i'm gonna aim that high this year....a silver enough...cause my body condition is in a bad state and i can't jump..can't reach...can't pull....and can't get up...hahas....so lame right? but ya...that's me now doing nothing now hahas...
NAPFA is gonna end real late...and i must be on time for the prayer meeting at least...,.hmmm...i love spending my time everyday after school there..lOlx...talking too much abt church already...change topic.
er..got nothign to say leh....oh yes yes yes !!!ms ang (my lit tch)lent me the stream of praise book already..!!!!*screasm* even mroe! hahas...so happy...i was jumping like nuts when i saw the book on my table this morning,...so sweet..hahas
thanks ms ang! u rawK! ahahsh

just came back from church!haiz dun feel like coming back at all...the best is i camp over there....ai ya i know that wish will not come true one...church is just like myu total second home...and not school...i never really liked school before....cause everytime i enter school...i just can't wait for that silly bell to ring so that i can head for church..if there's activities after school...i jsut can't wait for the person to say ''class dismiss'' hahas...that's all about wat i long for in school....early in the mornign when i wake up..i just tell myself...the day's gonna be long cuase there's school...haiz...see see see!!! i'm suffering as a pathetic student....why should i even be a student?i dun get it man! booohoo...*wails*
if onlyy....
if only i can stay in church
if only...
if only i can quit being a student
if only...
if only i can serve God all the days of my life
if only...
if only i can just score well with no troubles
if only...
if only i can spread the gospel so well that ppl will come..

God i need u....i really need u...everyday in my life..all i need is u...without u..i dun have today....without u...i wouldn't be a changed person like now...JESUs...come...come...come and save those who are not saved...their lives are precious...jsut like how u loved and blessed me...

hmmm in the com lab now super sian is like chinese and they want us to search about some wierdo stuff...so while it's loading i'm here! hahas blogging in case i've got not time to do so at home hahas
hmm can't wait for after school...i'm like so nervous cause i have australian math competition later so freaking la! boo hoo! like as if i can do like that hahahs =)
yup...i can't wait for church..i love that place too much i mean yup...GOd's presence is there and ya i'm happy for sure
Jesus lives....
and is like when i tell ppl of tesimonials and visions they would be like WAT!?!?!u saw hell? that's like impossible but those believers would definately believe wat i tell them cause they are believers! hahas!
lesson gonna end...next period....(after school) is..AMC! diee!!!! help! screams! i'm so scared!!!

hahas i'm at home!!!sick la...but ya...cannot sound too bei can also ! hahas! so bored..there's utterly no one at home and utterly no one online to talk to me....so sad...boos...but staying at home during a school time is also wierd...cause i'm just not used to it...ya...ppl at school...i at home...like a holiday like that hahas!
wondering wat time the church will open...hahas ...i can't wait to go to church la...nothing better to do that's why and ya...go there at least have some adults better than nothing right? hahas! =)
okay sorry if i'm like toking craps here cause i'm this this this bored! hahas!