i'm back after one whole week of not blogging...but ya...because i go for prayer meeting every night...and yes! it's wonderful! i've got so so so many testimonials to share and is like wow!Jesus is being so real to me...showing me so many visions of future..and stuff.He even showed me heaven and helL! wat a thing! i'm kinda shocked...and especially when He showed me about His cruxification...i couldn't help but to cry cause it was a ery closed up look on how he was being nailed on the cross...wait till u see it..and u'll know how much Jesus love u...
today during the usual Sunday service...we didn't had any sermon...cause this week...it's like the week of anointing and ya....every youth had a testimonial to share...that's why the pastor decided that we should take over the time and use our testimonials to touch the hearts of many...every one had a testimonial...every one was changed by God...every one was touched by the Holy Spirit...GOd is with us...in our church and every other church. the GOd of the biggest church is also the God of our church!
i can't wait..for next Sunday...i'm not looking forward to school at all cause i think i really dun like it..but ya...Glorify God with my good jobs and there! haahs!
JEsus loves me !

Jesus, why had u stayed on the cross?
ain't this a very familiar questions that sometimes u hear people ask?
the answer is here!
He willingly stayed on the cross...
1)to wash our sins away--we all are sinners...there's no one of us that have not sinned before.the result of sin is that we will suffer from comdemnation. but Jesus died for us so that he can wash our sins away with his precious bloodd
2)to free us from every bondage or satan....read [john 12]
no satan can go beyond the cross..each time satan sees the cross, they have to withdraw.
JEsus has come to set you free!
3)to heal the sick
why was he able to do that? he took every bad things from us on the cross.
the truth will set you free and the truth is 2000 years ago! he didn't came down from the cross!
all things are possible with God!
4)break every curse or failure
he became poor so that we would become rich!85% of all the 40 richest countries are christian!!!!
God renews our mind if we accept him...
if u believe in Jesus. u would be bless in everything! marriage,work! education! everything! let him undertake all your problem!
love have to be demostrated. Jesus did that by staying on the cross!
Jesus thank you for the great love for my life!
accept him and your life would never be the same as before again!

sunday...yes..today...and i've been looking forward to this day...and i dunno why...today early in the morning..i couldn't sleep...woke up at five and saw three msgs one of which was reub's...even though through the night...i couldn't sleep well...all i was thinking of is to wake up and have prayer with God...and so did i...chatted with hengyue on the bed..and while doing so..i was praying in my heart on the bed for Reuben(he went to taiwan already...)and tears just came flowing down..(i dun usually cry u know...)

and then all of a sudden, i got down my bed and kneeled on the floor and started praying for everything that came to my mind...for about half an hour...then i went to the piano...(it was only seven in the morning) and started worshipping and praising Him...until eight... but i was very surprised that no one came to knock on the door...complaining...it's God's grace that he allowed such a thing to happen... actually i've been waiting for this time that i can do this...giving my first time in the day to God...totally to God..and today...every thing seem to be what it is...

alright ...i was a five minutes late for prayer meeting...cause i didn't look at the time and dear charmaine was a little late hahas...the prayer meeting was really intense too..whoosh! i love it man...and i can't wait to go to their church in hong kong one day...it's gonna be fun definately! =)

the two days with the Hong Kong people is really great...i've learnt alot alot from them...and i thank God for their presence...it's also a great pleasure to get to know the leaders there! i'll talk about today's worship...

at the start of the worship...it was already very very intense...the message,life testimonies,and song presentations were great!!!really...and worship was wonderful...the presence of God was there...but...when it was coming to the end of the service...we had worship too...and God's presence was so so so real to every youth in our church...i couldn't really remembered what happened then..but all i knew was that the leaders were going around laying hands on the youths...and my hands was shaking non stop...and it was ice cold...seriously i never had this kind of feeling before...(no words can explain)and i almost fell when i leaned back cause my chair was taken away...thank God for bring so so real to us!
and at that time..i felt the greatest love of God...really Jesus loves u...JEsus loves u...He loved u so much that he was willing to die on the cross...to redeem our sins...i really wish every service would be like that...but that means we would have to really pray alot alot...
wE had fellowship after that...and we celebrated aunty rena's and two other ppl's birthday....hahas...it was fun though...and they filmed our youths...to bring back to hong kong! hahas and i believe me and van made a fool of ourselves...cause when they were filming..we were eating..and my mouth was filled with cream!awww then we performed my redeemer lives for them too!
the best thing of all was thai was HEALED!!!see! Jesus heals!today while i was jumping...the Lord moved my hands and made me touch my leg which was badly injured..and it was healed!!!!!!JESUS! I LOVE U !!!!
me,van,elim,jiaxing,and charmaine stayed back in church hahas to study....excluding me and van casue we were jamming like crazy...the fast songs became really slow and the slow ones became really fast! hahas! it's super super fun man! hahas...we practically went mad..and we she bu de live the place...awww...hahas goonna go back to jam tomorrow! for sure!

back from school! i'm so so so happy la...cause the weekends starts tomorrow...there'll be many things going on tml...hahas it's aunty rena's birthday(my church mate)....and reuben is gonnna fly off to taiwan for his training....(awww....) and....the hong kong leaders from our mother church would be coming for a meeting with us...exchange programme..somethiong like that la...then..there's van's skool's (compassvale sec) racial harmony day thingy...at compass point...hahas...see...it's gonna be either chaotic or interesting tml! i can't wait to see them....

i'm so not used to not going church today...cause for the whole of this week...i've been going chuch every single day...and because the pastors are gonna hold prayer meeting with the leaders...we can't go there to study! hahas ...so..i can't wait to go church tml...and i'll have double joy...that is if some one let someone out early...hahas! so ya...otherwise it would be only single happiness...which is a boo boo...

it's the typhoon season in taiwan...and ya...a typhoon just hit that place...hopefully it would not hit there for the 24 days that he'll be there...pray pray...God bless him...

from the bottom of my broken heart...
that's just the thing i'd like u to know
it isn't that easy....
i've got to hold...wat if i can't?
i'm weak..all i can do is to cry...
since when it became so strong?
never once it was like that...
i just try not to think of it.
but i can't.
when i am down...
u cheer me up...
wat else can u say?
i can't say it out.
*screams*

u never fail to amaze me.
no matter what,
ur grace pulls me through,
time and time again.
even when i go against ur word.
when i go against what u've told me to do.
u'll still make a way out for me.
ur amazing wondrous grace.
together with ur unfailing love lord jesus,
makes life just worth living, and living to the fullest.
to just experience the wonders of ur majesty.
when i decide to lash out at someone close to me,
and list all the things i wanna say,
ur still voice,
calms my heart and gently tells me 'that's not the way'.
lord,
even when i feel totally vulnerable and insecure,
lord,
i know u're just there beside me,
holding my hand,
silently,
being there for me,
even in a crowd. lord,
u've made me who i am.
but yet u want me to be so much more.
and the scariest thing is that,
we've got no reason to hold back,
with u,
so close to my heart.
and yet,
there's no limit to ur love,
ur love overflows my heart,
overflows my life.
ur love makes my heart cry.
ur love touches me when i'm the worst.
ur love lord!!!
if only other people could just draw so much closer to him.
lord,
if only,
i could let things go,
and forgive myself,
and experience ur love so much more.
lord,
i'm cryin out to u,
i'm cryin out for so much more.
saturate my heart with ur lov
enever satisfy mei'm cryin' out to u
Jesusi'm cryin' out to u.

2nd post for the day! but i bet u would enjoy this best! and i super love wat i did!!!oK here it was...after choir i immed rushed to church! hahas not bad eh? hahas disaster haven' started...until yee kei and vanessa came...hahas! that's where i totally enjoyed myself!

alright..at first...everyone of us was so so so quiet...doing our stuff...until elim said 'want dinner' then me, yeekei,and van (the official food lovers) said YES! sho loudly! hahas then ...ya...she went down to get a packet of fried rice..alright...it was only five minutes that she was gone from the three of us and we started becoming MONKEYS!(perhaps worse than that...)oK...i shall splurt wat we three nasty kids did!

firstly...the noise level got so high...till we were almost like shouting....(look it's only three ppl...but we are special ones)then we started our nasty wildness in us...doing nonsense...hahas we started thinking of a nasty pledge for ourselves...a real nasty one...hahas and then after that i took out my dove spray and spray it across the room...after that...vann thought of taking water and spraying the spray in it to make some 'wonderful' effcts.so we did...hahas...

just at that very moment...elim...the mummy came in....and we quickly throw wadeva we were doing into the dustbin...hahas and because it was spray...dove smelling some more...she knew we were up to something before that hahas! alright then...she put the fried rice one the table to share...surprisingly non o the food lovers laid a hand on it... (actually we were waiting for her to feed us...) then she went to took bowls and took rice for us...(see! so nice right?the perfect mummy)hahas...after that she went off...to take another bowl for us...and once she left her seat...the monkeys came back...yee kei was warning vann not to spit any rice out...but the next very moment...she spat rice out of her moiuthful !!hahas and again..(once bad things happens...elim will appear) she appeared...hahas after settling down...we were eating real slowly...(this is not the real us actually) then she was like...''need me to feed or not?'' and me and vann nodded our heads readily! hahas! but she didn't feed us la! hahas ...so we ate lor..and continued with our stuff...hahas! and all of a sudden i was like ''why suddenly so quiet ah'' then vann looked at me with some evil eyes...hahas of course la...mummy was around...sure quiet one...hahas and it went one...none stop....

well and elim concluded that yeekei me and van are together...can't be together other wise...hahas there it goes!

hmmm wells ya...and then...nothing much ...we all just went crazy lor hahas! then her mother came...and ya...we parted...boo...so i'm here lOR hahas!

hahas...what we done to jiaxing yesterday was even worst! hahas!we made him come into a totally dark room..and i hid under a table...and when he came in..i pulled his leg hahas then charmaine would push a chair back and forth and yeekei would use a broom to sweep his leg! hahas and he CLAIMED that he is not scared! hahas!

hahas that's all for today before ur eyes gets sore! hahas!

didn't blog yesterday cause i went to church....till like nine plus at night like that after choir hahas! is like through out choir i just keep waiting for it to end cause i cna't wait to go church...i love the environment there so so so much ...it's so comfortable...especially when everyone is there busy doing their work and stuff...the environment is so much better than any other place that i know of...today there's choir...and ya it's lunch time now...so i'm here in the com lab... alright...shan't say much...talk about today hahas!

alright...first period of the day ....english...we had a debate on whether to wear school uniform or not and i tel u....it's fantastic hahahs! i really love love love debating hahas! then next period we had our trail run for 2.4 which is next week..and i fell...cause my senior happen to be at the net ball court and she was starring at me...giving me so much stress...haiz...next time shan't look around...lOlx...

alright then next period was science.. i totally did not understood a single thing thast mr yong was talking about haahs! well...too bad la...it's some physics stuff...and besides i think that his explaination aren't that good...i prefer ms chan hahs! she's so much better...perhaps he's a new teacher...not much experience la...that's why! hahas

recess...nothing much hahs! after that was maths period...and ya....hahas it's super funny though...the day is so short today and ya...i love it...i love wednesdays...but not choir...never choir...i never once looked forward to attending choir..hahas! i can't wait for it to end....though it haven't started yet...hahas! cause i want to rush straight to church! i love that place and i'm totally in love with it....probably the spirit of God is there..guiding us and making us feel the best out of everything...hahas! Jesus lOves..and He Lives...hahas! =)

*screams*

save me from choir! my leg is super pain! hahas!

yeah yeah! hahas....i kinda feel super fun...muggin sometimes is nice....well perhaps i have not been really studying since the year started...hahas! oops....that's ..er...ya confesssing? ahas i'm guilty la!....shhh hahas no one will know anyway...but God does...and whoever is reading this...ya...hahas! lOlx...well...ya...i think our church has a wonderful environment to study.....and ya...it's so peaceful and stuff...better so much better than a library hahaS! i'm stating a fact...hahas
but being a little secondary two student..i have nothing much to study..so i just sit down there and read magazine! hahas! TEENS!!!i finally bought it....!hahas...i'm gonna start reading it tml!
during lesson time!cause i saw tml's schedule...can slack one...lit...(i always sleep during it..believe it or not...go ask my partner)....geog....(i always sleep also...) ....mother tongue...do nothing one...hahas legacy....worse....can talk like crazy...math....er....that i dunno la....science...also can slack...sEE! so slack right ? hahas!
i can't wait to go back to church agaiN man! hahas! it's gonna be super fun plus super cooL! hahas i love it i love the environment...not the environment outside church...but inside ! hahas!
God really id bless us with a place that we desire...a place where we can go everyday!
Jesus rawks...and is like today...is monday and i usually feel very slack and everything...but i felt Godd's strength in the morning...and i was kinda energetic..! thank God...hahas i was super super bouncy to day! and even my english teacher was shock! hahas usually i'm not like that one...i'll just lie on the table and stuff...but i felt that today i'm full of joy on myself!and smiles and i feel so light...and not heavy! hahas! thank God...he rawks so much!

Sunday. the day i've longed waited for. i really wish and long for my own freedom to worship God...no freedom to go shopping and other stuff it's okay. i just ask for one thing. Give me the freedom to worship my heavenly daddie. and allow me to spend more more more time in church..! is it that difficult? well perhaps that's because my parents ain't christians...i'll just have t0 keep them in my prayers. i really love God...but i seem to be restricted...that's why i treasure every moment i have in church... JEsus...i need you badly.
i want to scream to the whole world how great Jesus is.how real he is. how wonderful he is. how forgiving he is...let me scream now!do you hear my scream?*JESUS!!!!!I NEEd YOU!*
He's in my heart now...he listens to our prayers...and answers to them. He touches ppl hearts...and just for this..i have countless testimonials...i wish that i can share a testimonial everyday to someone. especiallly non believers...i want to tell them of how great God's love is...how great he can be....and how he heals me physically and mentally...HE's just that great...unconditional love..i have so much to thank him everyday...so much so much...suffering for God ain't easy...yes.though u might have the faith...temptations still come...i totally agree with what Martin said....the more faith u have, the more the devil wants to tempt u...
i totally agree...cause each time when i want to serve God...i'll get persecution...and it's always from my mother...each time i kick the devil out in Jesus name...i get feared...spiritual warfare? that's a big topic...i'm waiting for some one to explain in details to me what that is...
next week ppl from our mother church would be coming...and i really want to attend church next week cause i want to meet them...and learn...so yeah...i'll have to keep that in my prayers...so there..

i'm gonna start today's post with a prayer. cause i've got so much to thank God...

Dear daddie,
i thank you for the strength that you have placed in me. father i thank you for putting so many people into my life..and an angel to guide my way in life. Lord.without yuour presence. i wouldn't be healed.physically and mentally.but because u are in my midst...guiding me and undertaking all my burdens, forgave all my sins,santifying me. Jesus...this is how i became wat i am today. i have to thank you for all these. and even making me feel your presence. i thank you for being so real to me and my friends. Lord i pray that as i continue my day...u would bless the rest of my friends as how you have showered me with your blessings. Jesus i thank you.
Amen.=)

well ya..there's really so much to thank God for and i can't finish saying them...tomorrow is sunday and i'm really looking forward to it...but wells i'm gonna do sharing and i'm really nervous....nono i'm not...God's stregth is with me...and i'm gonna share on faith....yeah! faith! take the faith and carry it...that's all!

Faith in saviour gives salvation...! Amen?

ahas just finish settling the praise and worship songs for the youth fellowship tommorow...me and van are leading..hopefully eileen gets well...so that she can also lead with me! =)
God heals....remember? hahas! had a chat with reub too! well ya...it was a short..but nice convo though...we were kinda exploring msn things...and we found so many cute stuffs! hahas...and i realised that my tch said wrongly! southern part of taiwan is not hot now! it's the TYPHOON season!and it'll be raining...(according to reubbies) hahas ....won't be that bad...but that means training would be under the rain...hahas! just pray that the weather would be just find...not to hot nor wet! hahas! =)...

today...counted very slack...had music...dnt...then...legacy(nothing to do) maths (lame lesson) and science(also ver slack) see ...so slack..that's why i'm not tired...practically laughing the whole good day man! and wells..hahas tickling friends chasing about..so childish right?
we had to leave school early...as there is the GCE O LEVEL listening!

hahas well of course i'm happy! [me] gek and daph...went to parkway after much decision...of going to bugis...orchard and stufF! hahas and wels...ya...this time it aint as boring as those time that i went parkway ...cause i really enjoyed myself and it's very very memorable...i'll never forget this day...doing so many things together as threesomes...lets write about wat we did...the horrible things..hahas!

firstly..went parkway (duh) and...we went to the basement...entered MPH...then came out..suddenly daphne remembered that the GCE listening compre will be on radio...so both of us quickly took out our mp3s...and started listening...unfortunately...both of our mp3 have no more battery...so we rushed in to giant...grabbed a battery and paid...hahas that was the fastest decision ever man! hahas it was about 2.30 then...so we walked around giant...and at 2.57...we settled at a corner at Giant...and sat there...to start listening to the exam...so wierd right?

wells...the passage were very easy to understand...it's very short too! hahas and it's not as difficult as i thought..seriously...so ya...hahas...after that...it was about 3.30 that they ended..during that half an hour...gek bought five herbal eggs...she ate three...and one for me and daph hahas! after that...we continued walking at giant...and finally we settled our lunch in there! how hilarious! guess wat?

we ate...two pieces of picnic ham each and we three look stupid holding hams on our hands! and gek bought some really nice cuttlefish from giant which cost her $4.30...hahas then...we were outside giant when i suggested that we go pasta mania and share a plate of spagetti as there's a 30% discount..hahas...so we did...and well it was just enough for the three of us...after which...we sat there for a while and calculated the amount of money that we spent...and it added up to around twenty plus altogether...gek spent the most...me and daph about the same! hahas!

we went to the toilet after that...(lame) and then went to MPH to see if there's any books that we could recommand the school library..as librarians...that's our duty! right? hahas...and they were crazy over David Eddings books...when i said that i didn't found it interesting when i read it one year ago..hahas! and daph came to knock my head...hahas! wellls..it's been a long time sinced i really sat down to read anyway hahas...anyone bother to recommand me some books?i dun mind..hahas! wat we did next?

oh yes! it was raining when we wanted to go home..and hahas! gek took out her umbrella..and pass to me..and they both ran under the rain! omg...this is terrible! hahas and i was so gu niang under the umbrella hahas! and...ya...we took bus 135...and then seperated after that....so sad...and that's the end of my wonderful day... hahas i know it doesn't sound good cuase i'm not good at my expressions..hahas! but we really did joked about! =)

i miss church! weekends are running towards me! hooray!!

ya hahas another day but....ya today is another slack day also...so nice...had two periods of art..super super slack and i love it..then chinese we watched a movie...and then recess...then math hahas we were practically joking about la...hahas! sounds like a typical skool day that crystal always past..right? hahas
wells...yeah...tired...of course...but no choice la...right? lOlx...i can't wait to mugg with someone...or like go out or something like that! hahas! well...i'll ask my church mates...cause i like studying with them...hahas...not others...LOlx...elim is definately busy...cause her skool will end late this week hahas...poor gal...loLx..
and luckily my pastor smsed me in the morning! cause i actually almost forgot that i'm sharing on sunday man! lolx...otherwise i'll malu myself...and have nothing to say hahas..that better not happen..hahas must shine for Jesus...right? lOlx...

oh no...i neglected this blog...how could i? anyway...ya
i'm gonna fail science...the paper was very very difficult maN! and i mean ya...i can't do alot alot of questions...haiz...how? tell me leh! i can't do biology...totally can;t....i dunno why...maybe i'm too lazy to memorise ? who knows?it's me...but ya...u see
hmmm wells can't wait to go back to church...waiting for elim's sms to tell me when is she going back...though i know there's no service...but church is like my second home...NOT SCHOOL! definately not...i really dun like school...i dunno why....well perhaps i'm doing thigs which torture my brain cells killing them every day at almost an uncountable rate..well...it could be that i hate the school uniform which is so uncomfortable...(wat a material they use!)...perhaps...i'm studying subjects that i really hate...but wat can i do? the government is crazy...
today during our trial run for NAPFA...my friend was like asking me...''why singapore goverment so crazy one ah? have fitness test for wat? we fat then fat lor..not their business anyway...''
well actually i gotta agree with her...cause it's super true...why should they care? i mean is like our body...and why shoudl we have this test in the first place? they want us to be good in fitness and study....which one the one ah?

mum says that i can only go church ever alternate week which is so stupid...wells i know she'll forget one day that she has set this rule and of course,,,i believe that God wil undertake wat is happening in my life ....He would....i've got faith that he is watching over me and everyday every minute he is always looking at me....solving my problems....giving me total peace....i know it....God i thank u so much father you are my strength and my shield...

father..i thank u for this wonderful day lord...even though i'm not able to go to church to worship u today,father i know that u've been guiding me...lord u i thank u for allowing me the time of worship that u have enabled me to do it...at home father...i thank u lord for everything for u are great.father i commit each and every youth into ur hands lord that u would also bless them as how u did to me.lord i thank u ..in Jesus name i pray amen!

saturday..i'm really in a super deep dilema...whether to do it or not....no one knows wat i'm talking about...definately...cause no one knows about it...wells...i really gotta ask God before making this decision....cause....i mean...i can't go on impluse...i must be really sensitive..to God's voice these few days...i hope he gives a reaply before my next turn comes...
there's many thoughts that made me come into this decision of...wadeva i'm thinking now...but...it's a very tough one....i really dun want to do it on any impluse...cause i want to make this decision...with God's help..so much to say..so much to do...
t r o u b l e d
very...very t r o u b l e d....
God...i am really t r o u b l e d....