going bonkas...and i really am...i just came back from library...wells...skool was...horrid...but wells iwent to skool real early today just to meet the people acting in scene three...wells...before that i was so stressed up on the bus...thinking if i would do wat i am suppose to...i know yesterday...i made jerusha real pissed because i was confused with everything in the world...i had so many roles to change yesterday and i was too tired to think and do anything...wells...today...i did it in the morning...and i am not so satisfied...it is not perfect and i can't let it be not!because i must not let jer disapponted...or else...she will go mad....haiz...life...so stressful...wells it is not only me...many of my darling buddies too...
hmM library..man...i really never felt so stressful in library before and this is like my first time being like that...haiz...i just feel like screaming at every single minute i am in there!the world was just crashing down on me again and being the only decor person there...it's all really crushing down on me...it was like once i entered the library...someone came to tell me that i have to do the articles...type what quotes and decorate them...and so many things...it is countless...and i just didn't felt like doing anything...if Jer wasn't there...i would have screamed!!!but what can i do!?it's life...tell me!!tell me!!!everyone!!!let go of me!!!i have got enough of everything...skool maths science eng chi hist dnt and EVERYTHING in the world!!!LET GO OF ME!!!problems are way piling up on me...it is never decreasing...never and never...they are increasing soo rapidly that i am so suffocated down under buildings...now...next week...rehearsal on monday morning...what can i say!?nothing much....i just want to cry out...can i?!NO i can't...do i have a choice?! NO i dun!do i have a room!?NO i dun..there is no where....totally no where that i can have my own quite and peaceful time...each time i felt bad...i had no one to turn to except God...my friends are out tehre...but i dun wan to give them an extra burden...utterly not...i can't cry when i want...i can't scream...what is this?!?i am so deprived of every single freedom that i need...and u call this life!?anyway...
ppl...music test next week...i have to say this for the LAST Time...anyone needs the songs or scales...please come and tell me....thanks...i will help ya out with everything...but please tell me or i won't know cause i am not God...i can't see through what u are thinking...sorry but i am very veyr mad nowvery very veyr mad...let me off!!!let me scream!!!WHY!!!i am like in a bottle!!!! *screams*!!!