boo!today is such a busy day...boo....running all abt looking for ppl..like..juniors...friends...mortals...angels...tchs and wadeva lahz i am soo pissed!!!wadeva okay?sorry dudes...especially ppl sitting around me...sorry i know..u all kept asking y am i not bubbly...why am i not cracking jokes like i usually do going craz laughing like a hyena...sorry...i am really busy and thngs are going over my head...dramatisation...test...exams...work...filing...piano...choir...and everything that is occupying me...are bringing me down into the deep wells...dun worry i promise i will finish everything as soon aspossible kay?dun be sad...the jokes will be back soon once i am done with pissing with work! smile friends!!!=) i am still here...dun worry so much kayz?i am soo super fine...like a human..who is like a bee!!
wells...true..it's busy today..first thing went to skool...history CA....this is so horrid... couldn't do it...my mind was a total blank and i really dunno how on earth i can pass that paper..my mind wasn't there...my soul wasn't there...every thing isn't there at all...except my physical body...it is freaking..very very freaking...any ways...PE..was horrid to..my mood was ruined..i felt so nostalgic the whole day feeling nausea every now and then...what's wrong with me?where's my bubble self?where's my jumpy self?i really hate hate hate and hate what i am now...i can't stand it..i tried smiling...and be active..but it seemed all like plastic and soo fake...i can't smile...am i serious!?! i dun believe it either...instead of me humouring ppl...i am making my darlings worried abt me...sigh...i am so useless...wells...went to the library during recess..simin baked cae...wells it tasted quite nice!!!quite yummy though...and that cheered me up a little cause i have long wanted some cake...glucose?wells..hmm thanks simin...wonderful cake!!!and a few of us had some mini party in the librarians work room...eating chips...orange squash...cake and sweets and junks...that's how i spent my recesss....not only that...i was rushing to eveyr where cause so many ppl were calling me...the library printer broke down so i had to help repair...and make the printer feel good...hmm...then rushed to the com lab to print my work but it was all gone from my email...this is freaking...i want to scream now...close ur ears...*AHHHHH* alright i am done..open it now..okay..continue...
after recess...had art..that lesson is freaking...how on earth can my freaking art tch stop nagging?can't we haf our own ideas?it's art...she herself can say that art is all abt imagination and creativity but she is restricting us from everything...and we must follow her idea???wat the!!!okay nvm...had mother tongue...phew i thought i would fail chinese...but i passed!!!by 0.6 marks...big deal...at least i didn't fail...okay ppl u may think it is lame...but i can't do anything now...i failed my paper....my compo pulled me up..alright i am stupid can?!?okay then we had english...got back our vocab test!...well i screwed it up too...today was horrid though...i cried alot...almost every lesson except PE...i felt so depressed...tears just automatically stream down my face...wat can i do?nothing but to bury it under my hands...feel so hopeless sometimes... any way i went parkway with nicole my darling junior..to release myself from that tense enviroment...hmm didn't did much...went mini toons and many other shops lo...i didn't brought much money that's y...so sad right?yahz i know...but i can't do anything also lohz...well at least i realeased my self a little...that's better than nothing ya noe?okay...i shall end this day online...till as long as i want!!!i know there is maths spring test tml...but...i cannot tense myself any further or else i will explode and my heart lungs and every internal organs and red blood cell will fly out of me...