eng final years today...and can u all just simply believe it?!?! i'm actually playing and stuff...alright...shall write about this interesting day!
after exam...i played tennis for awhile...then...went to meet martin,javier,vincent for lunch at bugis...after that...made out way to dhouby ghout...to meet elim and charmaine...hahas...
today is elim's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIM! I LOVE U SHIFU!
yupp...and wells...i really had loads and loads of fun...
doing crazy stuff...and stuffs....
but one thing i can't stand...is that elim and charmaine can actually shop without eating
that's one thing i definately can't do cause every few steps i take i wil think about eating...haha
i tolerated...and wells...haha...hinting doesn't really work on them...cause they are not the food kind...
alright..then made out way to church for cell group....
the worship was really nice...
and God spoke so much things to me....
is like if u all read the previous posts...is like every friday i go for cell there would be persecution for me...
but this week i really felt that it was super special!
i felt so differently...
and God said something...that really encouraged me alot....
He said that although i may be suffering all those persecutions,
He is very please that i had always rely on Him and kept the faith and fire going...
and that because He wants to use me greatly....
i am really very thankful.
cause i have always wondered ....i'm just some typical gal...with no face to throw...
some ugly gal that can't be compared to any one on the street...
shocked?
but this was how i have always felt..
but GOd reminded me that i am always special in Him....
thank u JEsus....
it's really a wonderful time hearing so many encouraging stuffs from God...
it's really alot...and now i'm just trying to recall....
=)
yupp...

this is the only day i got home so early...it's only like one plus...going two..haha...
could have gotten home earlier..but stayed in school for some rehearsal...=)
lonely afternoon...so quiet....but wells...anyways i shall blog about this short day...
firstly...first lesson was art...for two periods...we did the anti druggy thingy..and it's fun though...
i really superly love art to the core of the earth...i enjoyed myself painting...but the drawing part ain't that fun...heehee...
and wells...couldn't finish...cause mine was rather complicated...so...i just carry on with my chinese class...and i seriously wasn't paying any attention to the teacher..but just draw and colour...then recess...i also came back early.....(for once ever...i came back early from recess)
and continued again....haha...wells...
then maths lesson...didn't really did much...so it's really a boring day...
but i still enjoy crapping with my friends...
but...i still can't tolerate with all the vulgarities...
i'm just not used to it...hahas...=)
exams on friday...gonna be dead...=_(

heyy....back...the geog CA really made my day...u might think it's crazy that an ema made my day...but...i'm really happy after that...i feel confidence for once...
confidence flew away from me too...
and i need to catch it back from where it went...the finals are here...
yuPp...had a rather pleasing day...was rather boing in school though..but i ate sho much for recess!!!it's really alot...three chicken wings...mixed veg rice...and nuggets...
have been really having GREAT appetite recently...and that's me when i am stressd out...
sho...dun be surprise...hee...cause my friend was staring at me...after she finished her malay food feeling super full...=)and i was like...''will u stop it? cause i'm hungry''
haha...super lame...hmm...then the lessons went on with the usual chatty class...until the last period which was maths...
well...basically i was embarrased by watsoever thing...cause my maths tch was saying something...cause my friends ask a question...and i was like down there saying
''he's just kidding only lah..''
then my maths tch was like ''see crystal knows me sho well''
then the whole class started their woos...cause they are all not thinking straight!!!
get me??
and my face got all red lor...it went o for so long...and i felt like throwing my face away...haha...
then he ask me help him paste a notice at the back of the class...
then they were like wooing again and again...arghh...
it's super wat la...i never felt so embarrased before...hahas...
well...FINE!!!hee...
alright then went to church....was totally slacking there..i brought my friend there...
and we were really chatting like crazy...
it was just like a totally thing that we had lOr...
alright then met van for dinner with the rest....
went to ang mo kio...haha....
eat minced meat noodles...
yummy...
i love it....
i'm really happy with my day today...=)
thank u Jesus...

hahas...enjoying my days...but wells...at times persecution do come...my friends ask me ''aren't u afraid of persecution? why do u want to suffer so much for GOd?''
is like...they are christians..but they are very very afraid to suffer from God...
but at the same time they want to receive countless blessings...
so i was like telling one of my friend on the bus today that i really dun mind suffering for GOd...
and she was like''but why?''
so i was telling her that if u really love God...u wouldn't mind...
and she was like looking at me in such a manner that makes me think that she's gonna ask why again...
i really spent the whole bus journey explaining to her everything...i didn't mind...
i shared with her my experienes...of persection from friends and mother...
is like...sometimes a little patience really helps alot...and i've learnt alot today through sharing my experiences to her...though it was pain...
and on sunday which was yesterday...the pastor was also preaching about things like persecution and stuff....
i almost cried when i was listening to it...cause it's really...
it really brought me back to my memories...
all my times when i am persecuted just flashed back like a video in my mind...
i just felt like hugging someone and cry at that moment...
but it was during sermon...
i felt so empty in me...i felt that as if i'm gone some where else...and everything in me was gone..
then after that i heard someone called my name from the back the voice was so warm...it was Vanessa...
she said that i must listen to the sermon...cause it was for me...
i realised how much love really flew away from me...
and i really have to admit...this girl...really made an impact in my life...
she's the one who gives me so much encouragement when i'm with her,
letting me feel that care and concern...
she seems just so motherly sometimes...though she's just as playful as me...
i thank GOd for Vanessa...=)
have i got to realise...l o v e....
no one can give me this UNCONDITIONAL love....except God...

finally i'm touching the com but it's recess now and i'm kinda rushing to type...hai...can't surf the net from home cause my mother kinda stole my laptop from me...boo hoo....i can't do anything but just to boo all the way....i'm happy this week....really happy though i am stressed at the same time...=) i made alot of new friends and it's really kinda fun...
Javier is one of them...mandy is another and another one is su an from my school...
i'm really thankful for having so many friends by my side...friends are important...=)
yupp...finally i kinda really start studying anad stuff....=) it's kinda busy and i can't really find time for my own personla use...( actually i do ....but....haha not that much ) crapping and stuff is sometimes really fun during the time that u are studying...i miss the time where i really did crapped with so many people and stuff...hahas....
i've got some geog stuff after school today....yup..dunno if i should go church...but i think i will cause one of my friend is going...=) aint that a good thing?
she's been asking me whether she can come to my church..though she ain't a christian...=)
i hope that she will acceeept soon...hahas...=)

i'm back....couldn't blog at home cause my com hve some silly problem...there's so much i wanna say...miss my darling blog so much...
so much had happened..but my life is still safely in Jesus's hand=)
God's blessings have been really on me...and everyone to..i thank God for everything that He did in my life...i couldn feel the trememndous change that is occurring...it's just a matter of realisation...and i did!

Sunday's sermon really did touched my heart...it somehow did made me felt guilty...
pastor was talking about not worrying...and that it is a sin...
and it was like i was worrying for every single thing the whole while...my exams are coming up and i'm panickingh like a mad lady...
hai...i was really really very veyr guilty...sorry Jesus...

there's so many peoople who are not saved...i'm worried...they must be saved! they must...cause they must expperience the love of GOd before the second coming...
sometimes i know...it's really difficult to put things across to friends whom u are really close to...
u just dun want them to go to hell ....cause it's torturous..
but the thing is that u a;so dun want to ruin the friendship which u nurtured...just because of spreading the gospel....
i experienced that before but still i went forward to tel them about Jesus...cause He is more important than any other things...
i really dun mind loosing a friend and tell that person about God's love...i really dun...
cause all christians are here for all one same purpose.....
SHARE GOD"S LOVE....
isn't it? so why should i fear?
my life is in God's hands...safely in it...=)

i wanna bring at least one of my friends to church...but it seems to be difficult...they give every other reason not to come...saying they have exams...so wat...i also have...but God is first...and that's it....some say that no matter wat religion u are in...u will still go heaven....
sometimes when i hear this i just feel like telling them ''let's hope i see u there''
but...wells...hai...wat can i do?i did my part...
human are just so stubborn...they refuse to take the fact that some one died for them to redeem them of all their sins and bondage and to heal them from every sickness.. they just refuse to....
but wells...
i still love Jesus...=)

today...just a typical day...
but i just can't stand it! i heard more F word today than ever...is like when i go online ppl also can say tat **** word and the B**** word...in school also can hear...everywhere also can hear the same thing...that word very nice meh?
i just totally can't tolerate listening and looking at those vulgarities...it ruin my whole mood...and is like...i really dun want to be close to those words..i want to be as far as possible from them and as near as possible to GOd...
argh...i can't do anything...but i thank GOD that He gave me the patience to tolerate...otherwise i would be screaming my heads off my lungs!
had lessons as usual...nothing much...just another boring day... but it really stresses me up to know that the exams are like coming...
and time is not waiting for me...it's flying far way in front of me...argh...
i'm just not in any mood for studying at all...i tried every ways and means to get myself studying but nothing just seemed possible
well yupp...had chinese(boring class)...geog(2 periods), science(alot of free time)....lit(did nothing at all but joke)...no assembly...english(super lame)
yu..nothing much actually...and wells...yupp...after school i was in a dilema..i dunno where should i go to study..i wanted to go church but then elim said that she would only be there at like 3 plus...so i came home first...then i didn't felt like going...
so here i am now lor...ONLINE!not studying...see la...wat's the diff...hai...go church also later no one come home with me...so i rather stay at home...have loads and loads of food for my stomach...
large large cravings for food...
on the bus...it was like...me and my friend were like talking about the calling that God gave us to do...and is like...i really realised how important each calling were...while we were talking...i was also thinking....how each calling can bring more ppl to christ...
but both of us thinks that the world is really in need of evangelist..cause the end times are like coming.....
and not everyone are saved...so the world really needs alot alot alot more evangelist...
and not long ago i was reading an article online about evangelism...and they were saying so many things and how important evangelist are now...
so yup...i've got a job to do too...mission for GOd...that is to really pray and bring more ppl into the wonderous kingdom of GOd.=)
intercessor...i happened to be reading an article about that too....and they were actually saying how impt intercessing is...from there i really realised how important my calling was...it really will make impacts on many ppl's life...and ppl will be saved...so yup...
i must be really in tune with GOd...
and not play a fool any more...

back...with not much to say...hahs but i'll just blog wat comes to my mind...just came back from cycling with vann...well haha...its a good thing that she called me out..otherwise i'll go crazy at home..hahas...
hmmm school is oK la...hahas...nothing much to say except the fact that it's the last day of CCA..and i'm super happy..=) hahas...well...i duNno why...but this thing about serving God came to my mind...and is like recently in my prayers God kept telling me that He wants to use me...and that i must serve Him...so i will...
but He did say another thing that there would be persecution...the thought of persecution sometimes really frighten me...cause i've been through so many from my mum...and i'm really afraid of it...each time it gets worse...but i really have to thank GOd for one thing...cause He really gave me alot of patience to endure...u know...before i accepted Jesus into my life...i was a very ver super duper impatient gal...even waiting for a moment will just kill me...but now i have no problem waiting for even 2 hours..it's very fine with me...i also want to thank God for the tolerance level that He gave me...is like last time i can't tolerate my mum at all...i'll just simply scream back..but now...i dun even say a word back...but just keep quiet...=) thank u Jesus...all praise really goes to Him...=)He's done so much in my life...and He really changed me alot...i admit i'm still as crazy...but if i calm down...there's really a wonderful big diff...hahas...
hmmm...guess wat...there's such a contradicting thing now...is like this week i ate super super alot...is like everything also double portion...but i lost 2 kg!!!that's crazy...hahas i think i'm overly stressed already...=)

school officially reopens today...and it's totally sian..we did some survey about dunno wat la...and they asked questions like ''do u like the school?'' and for all my straight answer was like 'strongly disagree' hahas...i'm being honest wat...it's a good thing..and besides they really can't say anything...it's me opinion...hahas...
well...hai...i'm super sad...a little disappointed though...cause the pastor changed some orders about going to church everyday...is like...ya...we still can go..but...there won't be prayer meeting..yes we can pray ourselves..but...the thing is that i really enjoy the prayer meeting...well it's ok..though...i have not much opinion...just sad when i heard the news yesterday...
wells ya..stress...first day of school already talking abt exams...and is like I HAVEN"T STARTED STUDYING!!! wat can i do now huh? super not in the mood of studying...even if u tie me up i also can't study...so there's no point...well i'll wait for that little inspiration to study...let's see when it is....bored to death at home...long story....luckily there's something called MSN...hee...

MORE OF U...
I thirst for You
The one who satisfies my soul
More of you I’m asking for
I wait on you
My hiding place, I rest in you
So Precious is your voice

Lord I love you, really love you
Only in you I am complete
Lord I need you, really need you Lord

I draw nearer to you my God
With boldness I approach your throne
With grace like a river flow
I bring praises to you my God
Sufficient one, your more than enough
More Lord, I ask for more Lord

CANOEING ROCKS!!!hahas it's a rather wonderful day today! hahas..met little vanvan at my house bus stop...then we made our way to east coast park...hahas...and when we went there...the weather was over fine...it's super windy and there's no sun!!!
our main aim was to go there and SUNTAN!!!but...van told me that she prayed for good weather last night...and the weather was TOO GOOD! hahas...anyway..yup...we enjoyed ourselves...before we canoed...
we played in the sea..and i think that both of us are crazy...screaming and shouting away at the sea...hahas...and wells...yeah! we made heart shapes on the sand...hahas...and stuff saying ''i love u ''hahas so funny...it's a super nice time with my little darling vanessa...=))i thank GOd for hEr too! hahas..
oh yes! the part about canoeing...how can i miss it! hahas...the boat was super super heavy hahas..but VAN is STRONG! hahas...alright..then we prepared...and at first i was a little scared though...hahas..and i kept telling van not to go too far...muahahas...but after that i regret la...cause its' super fun lor!haiz...
alright...then went to parkway to eat..hee...then..went to GIANT...hahas there's alot of cheap stuff there...shall go there more often to stock up FOOD for myself! it's super cheap..and i can always stock up my titbits box all from there! hahas!
alright...then we proceeded to church for practice..hee...was a little late...but we already tried our very best...we can't do anything...
alright then..we practice..haas...then..prayer meeting....
this time..or rather...this night....GOd spoke super alot...it was very long since GOd spoke so much to me...and is all about wat He wants me to do...
yup...
be a light of everyone! hahas

*screams*i really got nothing to say le...seriously ...this vanvan is tempting me super alot to go and canoe with her! *screams* i want to canoe...but no money lEh....how?!?it's gonna be like so wasted if i dun go lOr!tsktsk....crystal ah crystal...one day dun eat will die ah??!?!?!time to stop liao leh!!!!eat eat and eat...do nothing but eat...tsktsktsk...
van said she dun mind treating me....my...that would be very very bad leh...an the next thing is that i hope my mother allows...other wise that one also die...she dun allow and the whole thing will be just simply gOne...anyway...hee....

EMMANUEL lyrics...this is such a beautiful song...

Holy Holy
I will bow before
My Lord and King
Hallelujah
You have come to us
You make all things new
Emmanuel
Jesus Christ
You'll never let me go
My Shepherd King
You'll never let me go
My Sheperd King
You're watching over me
Emmanuel
So amazing
You have named the stars
Of the deepest night
Still You love me
You have called my name
I will follow You
Holy Holy
God Almighty
There is none like You
Holy Holy
God Almighty
There is none like You

apparently i waited for like three hours before i could use the com la...my brother is like terrible....use for almost six hours already still dun wan to let me use..tsktsktsk...too pampered already...wells...ya...choir bonding tml...and it's at east coast park fro, 9 am to 5pm...dun't u think that's totally a little too horrible? not only a little ....but i think that kind of bonding can cost my life...i rather do it with the church..i dun mind if it is from 24 hrs all the way...but i totally mind doing it with choir..i really hate it so much so that i really can't stand looking at ppl from there...dun ask me why caudse i really dunno...it's not like as if...that bonding session tml would do me any good...i rather juist stay not bonded at alll...then spend my youth with them....not like as if i'm that free... to go and play with useless ppl... any way...i still have to go...and listen up....
i did not want to go willingly...but it's FORCED...if u dun go...i would be nagged and stuff..so i'll just DRAGG my self there...early in the morning i have to leave home at 7.30..it's not funny...i just hate it...i can assure u..that me and my friend...who also hates choir and DREADS it will not enjoy our time there...rest assured seniors...we are just putting up a show...to just TRY and LOVE it...i think if u ask me...i rather study then go for choir..so that's it la...dun come and bother me any more can???i'm being super frank here..and i totaly dun care wat's gonna happen...cause it's my life...and only GOd rules my life...not choir...not school....get it? that's it...i'm glad u do...

I'M BACKK!!! and i've got shoooo much to say!!!exactly a week since i blogged! and its...like...wow!!!hahas no la...because recently my body not functioning well...so once i come back from prayer meeting i must rest...panda eyes are developing real fast...and it became so obvious till my church mates can see it from far...wat the!
but ya....it's sunday!!!ppl!!!holidays have started! gonna parteh man! =))
church is super wonderful...it's getting more fun each day! praise the Lord! hahas...must pray that my mama allow me to go for church camp at the end of the year... cause...need to pay two hundred wonderful bucks! and is like a very big sum of money leh...they probably ask me to pay myself...and i dun have that much....=(
God will make a way...when there seems to be no way....
muahah!
wait! before i forget ...
HapPy bIrtHdaY rEuben bOY!!!=))))
ure older now already leh...tsk tsktsk....GOd bless u then..heee....
yesterday during lunch...elim was talking to me about martin...and my calling...i think God really ask her to come and ask me about it...cause i really dunno why...but it just seems that...calling....ya...i really need to get clear about it....i serously do....
she posted this question to me.... ''wat do u wish to do for GOd?''
and i was like...worship...children...and wat He wants me to do...
after that the answer i got was....
'' i think u are more suitable for youths...''
which is like wat i found was true...i do enjoy worshiping in the youth ministry....but after some searching..i realise wat i like to do with the kids....is to teach them...and play....well....that..i dun believe i won't get a chance to play with the kids! =)
hee...i'll just follow wat GOd says...be obedient....
HE's got plans for me....=)
and today eiLeen shared a testimony...that GOd touched her heart to do so... that is... TO THANK ALL THE YOUTHS! u know something?this morning during prayer meeting...God was also telling me to thank all the youths....and it was such a ccoincedence...hee...i've got so much to thank every youth in my church....they have brought great joy in my life...and i really have to thank God for them! =)