wadeva!i am pissed

not in the mood for anything...that's y i have not been blogging that's so freaking for some reasons...well...
dun ask i am just pised some how with some things...*stress* sometimes disappearing is a way to escape...but not every time
you see the world is so freaking some times and u won't even know abt it... dun care lahz...wadeva...
it's call knots and stones...tonnes of them....non stop...i can't be bothered anymore already...
i just want to give up but i have God...i can't...i have my beloved friends...i can't...so too bad...i am with so many...i am sick and tired...
SICK AND TIRED geddit??wadeva lahz...yahz...so?????i am pissed okay???dun come looking for trouble...okayy dun feel like blogging noe...or else..i will fire up!
dun ask me why i am like that cause i also dunno...wadeva...HELP!!!*screams*

i am not myself again!

wells...wed...skool was okayy..not as tiring as last time...haha...maths was fine...Graphs...hmm...much much better than Algebra!haha and that mr yap was like telling me this again and again...'wat a clever girl you are' ermm okayy...thanks...haha i am really weak in maths...and i really am! a little encouragement does much..though it sounds childish!haha wells...history tch never come today...and that mdm seah took over... how many times must i see her in a week??my art,legacy,form,tch mentor,???awww..sufferings...haiz haiz...horrible!well chinese....had to write scripts...hmm and i was the leader for it...hmm...stress leh..still have that ecosystem thing... i am incharge of my group...and the lit drama...i also leader??ermmm...no more...that's stress that i am facing...aiyo...s t r e s s ...litterally....if i my group dun hand in or complete in time...i am d e a d!

hmmm after skool...went to gramcy(music store near our skool)with hengyue...cause we had a one hour break...hmm went there to just chill out with the music scores!i was way too pissed yesterday...i havve a heavy knot in me...a billion tonne stone in my heart...it dun seem to be able to go away! wells....reached there...hengyue was looking at some duets...wedding duets!!!erss....okay...never mind..and i was there...walking around...aimlessly until i remembered about musical box! i remember and i went searching for that song...until..when i picked out this grey book....and saw the title in it!i was jumping for joy!!!it was so fantastic!but it seemed too easy...wonder if there is another more difficult version...hmm...hopefully...i have been looking for that song for wat seemed like ages...and finally i found it!!!so cool!hmm the time passed soo super fast...and we didn't know that we spent one hour in there!!!man...wells...then we quickly rushed back to skool...

hmm...entered the choir room..it was so noisy...it is election day...E l e c t i o n ...okayy i have nothing to mention abt it...wells...i just couldn't believe something of some one and i am really shocked...okayy...shant' mention much...after that..i immed rushed out of the room with sister and made our way to parkway..to get prezzzies for some ppl...hahas..then went to mini toons...bought gummies...hmmw e were in a bad mood...so we didn't cared wat we took...then...saw this media corp artist there...Cassanda...haha....didn't bothered much....we have no idols...cause JEsus is our only one we adore!None other can beat him!herawks!

wells...i am crappy...haiz..i am not myself again!how? how? i am that wierd gal again....when troubles seem so near...all surrounding me like enemies wanting to kill me!so bad! so sian!!!

verses to cheer me up!

"Do not enter the path of the wicked, And do not walk in the way of evil. Avoid it, do not travel on it; Turn away from it and pass on."
Proverbs 4:14-15
"For as the heavens are high above the earth, So great is His mercy toward those who fear Him;"
Psalm 103:11
"For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known."
1 Corinthians 13:12
"Surely He scorns the scornful, But gives grace to the humble."
Proverbs 3:34
"Do not be wise in your own eyes. Fear the LORD and depart from evil."
Proverbs 3:7
"Whoever hides hatred has lying lips, And whoever spreads slander is a fool."
Proverbs 10:18
"His own iniquities entrap the wicked man, And he is caught in the cords of his sin."
Proverbs 5:22
"For as the heavens are high above the earth, So great is His mercy toward those who fear Him;"
Psalm 103:11
"Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the Lord."
Psalm 31:24

pissed....i am crying

hmm was early today!reached skool at like 6.45 and was bored to death inclass nothing to do ..then all of a sudden my junior popped up at my class room and passed me the letter..how sweet of her...wells...went to assembly ground...realised i forgot my name tag...oops...too bad too late....wels...okayy..first lesson...maths i guess...hmmm okay lahz...was sleepin...haha...so tired today don't seem to be able to sleep...wells...nothing much today...oh yes recess was a disaster...i didn't had it as i had to rush for my literature CA...freak!
okayy well...there is lit drama...suppose to act a singapore drama with all the 'lah' in it...and me???being like a ah lien is not m style...i can't do it...ask me scold ppl in a sissy manner???So not my style!!!it's utterly NOT...but so sad...i haf to force myself to do it...boo!!
after skool...was suppose to be going park way with my dear junior...but all of a sudden i was told that there was choir so....too bad...feel so gilty...can't accompany her...some more still leave her tp go parkway all alone....haiz..then went to video world to eat..with her and hengyue...i am sooo pissed with hengyue today!!!firstly, when i went back to skool to buy something...she took my handphone from my bag without asking and taking photos all over in video world!!!she didn't feel guilty i guess..but that's really horrible..when i asked her y..she said..'oh your handphone still full of battery...so i can play' that's not answering my question...in the first place my phone was NOT ONN!!!! how would she kow unless she switched it on???my junior took something from my bag...that was ok cause i allowed her too!but hengyue....that's a very bad act...being ur friend i will tell you...if u do that ouside..ppl will say u are stealing!!!get me???reflect over it!
well...i didn't felt good when i enter the choir room....all of a sudden i seem to haf a headache...that's y i was rather quiet..i was thinking deep into thoughts about some things...i dun want to mention...and my headache got worst!!!something didn't seemed right...i was way crying in my heart...we praticed....i didn't seemed my self....something wasn't right...i needed God at that moment...suffering deep in thoughts...i can't stop crying in my heart...cause i can't cry out...otherwise ppl in choir will be thinking that i am crazy..for no reason then cry...cause some of them are NOT understanding at all!
tml is election...can i dun appear???ok i know wat all gonna say...MUST COME!!okayy fine go than go...but dun blame me if i am in an awful mood...cause i am...
dun come looking for trouble if u see me pulling a long face...I AM VERy PISSED TODAY!!!

a bane of life........

well...monday..boring lessons boring skool...almost late for skool today..i woke up at like 6.20...and i immed jumped out of the bed..bath and rushed out of the housel...and that silly bus didn't arrived!!!well...thank GOd..i was so anxious i was praying throughout the journey and GOd was there...i could feeel him...he alwasy help at the most climax of your trouble...woohoo...and i almost cried on the bus while prayer....(ermms)
wells...reach skool....early in the morning haf letter...from my darling junior...hmmms hahhh well love them lots...maths was boring..then PE....worsse!!!music...ermms i was busy replying letters....hhah...recess...hengyue ask me to meet her at the second level stairs but she ran away..so it's not my fault...i am out of this...wells...had recess with my class instead...haha art after recess..was busy chatting away...did nothign...chinese...got ourselve into groups and write scripts...last lesson...eng...did presentation....and my slide had a problem...freaking...wells...today wuite slack lahz...
that boy called men....he wanted to meet me after skool...but too bad.......and he said tml...wells...i'll see my schedule....hahas....hmm okayy now i am here...bored to death!!!nothign to do...just ate some home made jelly...*yum*
i feel like i owe it alot to God.....i haf not been talking to him regulary...and i am so guilty....tonight...i shall control and just have a longer time with HIm...for He is so great...BIG...is he...i love him...i want to serve him....but i am studying....
CAN"T I JUST SKIP SKOOL???
and serve him???STUDY iN A BIBLE COLLEGE or wat...i will be more than happy...rather than studying the supernatural!!!i love GOd i love him!I DECLARE!!!!

replyinh to taggies!

e*iLeen: i l0vee y0uu!!!
jiaxing: I Love DaD! JeSus!
jiaxing: Life is BeaUtiFul
not tis crystal: tag tag tag....
brrocoli: finally found yr tagboard after scrolling up &down hie to dis 'NICE' snr of mine

hi ppl!thanks for taggin!HY....DUN FLOOD MY TAG!!!!now that person's tag is gone!!!!haizhaiz....welll...
eileen:lurvve ya lots to!!!thanks for all the things!!!hug*
Jiaxing....continue to pursue GOd okayy???he rawks...pursure him!!dun neglect him no matter how busy u are okayy???goody boy*pats*hahas...see ya soon....miss u all!!
twin:hihi!!!long time no see !!!Miss ya!!!i still remember our childhood times!!!!
hweeyee: hi jnr!!bond bond and bond!!!my dear juniors will not fall!!!they will pull through thick and thin as ONE!!!!

ppl!!thanks!!!!ahhhh*screams*i miss church!!!though it is still sunday!!!i miss it like crazy!!!how??ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ermmm i gone nuts!!not myself!

yOUth sErvicE rAwKs!

just came back from church..had youth fellowship today!!!well okayy lets talk abt everything that happened in church!!!
reached there super early today!!helped out...wells...it was my duty to play the piano...*guilts* didnt practiced much by THANK U JESUS!!!i coordinated rather well with the guitarist,MArtin..thanks alot!u were rather patient with me...hmm..okayy wells service started...
first song..i rush a little...the the pastor kinda skip one song...'give thanks' errrs...this brought both of us to confusion...and i had to bwe so alert...hahas...the rest were rather fine..except for the new song 'you are beautiful' ermmsss.guessed i had some error with my chords at the end...
hmm then sermon...discussed on 1 samuel...hmm..did that during cell group already!thanks aunty rena!u made things easier for understanding for me!!
then wells..after that me and martin were talking..and alla sudden the senior pastor started saying abt singing a song and i immediately rushed to the pianO!!gosh gracious!thanks GOd that i managed to follow up!
alright!YOUTH FELLOWHSIP!!!it rawks!!!singing hilsongs and stuff!!!my favourite...we jumped and jumped!!!oh man!!i really love it..the worship was soooo super anoited compared to the morning worship!!
God is with the youths!!!
woohoo!!!
wells...yup..the pastor talkied abt Boy Girl Relationship!!!wells i was just wuiet lahs..except two ppl...the 'enthu' one...hahaha..i was just busy looking at someone..*Ahem*wadeva..he/she (not revealing) is just sooooooo adorable..soooooo attentive...man..i am melting already...MELTING in process!!!man...soooooo cute....and he/she is soooooo wat i call spiritual during worship...praising GOd with all he/she has!!!ahhhh...*screams*
okayy well it rained...so..all of us apparently forgot to bring out umbrella...wat luck!wells..but God bless us..there was aunty rena again!!she's always our 'saviour' in many things...she gave me a lift home...with iaxing..and her two kids...vann and reub..hahas...well anks aunty rena once again!!!*love ya lots!!!
rain got heavier..and i got drenched apparently..so noww i am here....at the com...dry!!!after eating lunch!and making some jelly for desert later...putting two bananas in the fridge,putting a warm cup of home cooked barley in the fridge...and changing...i am here!!!hahahas
*misses*for someone...

up ups down downs

friday...lit in the morning...my group was like quaralling over some non sensical things...guess i landed my self in a wrong group...each of them are like CHilliPadi...and they are really FIERCE...I feel so helplesss.staring at them fight...wadeva...and we just simply wasted out time??haiz...[me] so 'innocent'...haiz....
next lesson...I HATE HOt sarks to the core of the earth!ME ECONOMICS...it sarks!!!i really hate it...i have NO LOVE for the subject....i hate wat it is...i hate the tch..i hate the subject....i hate the type...I REALLY HATE HOME ECONS!!!sewing???cooking???NOT FOR ME...it just piss me off having to do that!i just hate it...*** ***....why can't i do MEP???i rather repeat wat i have learnt before than suffer here!it's sraks...totally utterly..ppl!!!IF U CAN TAKE MEP...Take it....or u will REGRET LIKE ME!!!
lesson was boring....lined up are eng,sci,history.....want to sleep already ah...englosh entrepreneur project...so horrible....science was okayy not so bad...had a short multiple choice test...diffussions and osomosis....hmmm...history...man oh man..dramma skit for history.it's boring lahz...
after skool...went to video world again to eat lunch...[been eating maggie lately]later hair losst....well went back for library duty...make many ammenments to the speech day booklet...hand so pain hahah wells...yup...we were all crapping there
like as if there is NO tch there when there was actually two..oops..hope they didn' over heard our secret talks???hahah
well after that took bus to meet weihan...
hahah....shan't elaborate,...came homw...and i was bored to death!!wadeva...the day was bad!

nahz....life rawks!

'all classes passes except 2/1,2/2,2/3,2/8...' ya right..they checked only after we haf done our duty haiz...so unlucky...then todat these four classes have to stay back for class DC...lame...helped to arrange the things needed for speech day...free labour huh?carry tables....chairs...and wadeva...and that hy...was standin down there...shifted like nothig...so unfair lahz...when i am like down there..moving piles of chairs..and carrying tables from levels to levels...it's like damm heavy lahz...wadeva...tmlstill have to do...TWO HOURS!!!but mdmd khoo was nice...she is gonna give us CIP hours...cause i asked her and then she say YES!!!yay!!!-since when i was so brave-
well lessons were okayy...laughter more like it..had science in the morning...went to take some temperatures around the skool...and i found a kep...on a tree!!!*is there a secret garden...i wonder*hmm...then had maths...wahahaha....per tutoring...and cause i failed the previous maths test...mr yap say that if i get a distinction for the next...HE"S GONNA TREAT US TO A PARTY!!!and he's paying...manz...i am so stress lahz...cause if i dn get it...the class is gonna be angry!!yap...y me???
music lesson was rather okayy lahz...hah ms lau said i am an efficient music rep...(cause i help the whoole class photocopy so many diff music scores for their practical test)hmmm...thanks for that encouragement...
recess...was a little chaotic...hmmm...ate the chicken pie..yum yum...then went back to class...i really love my class...my peers..my frens ans stff...they rawk..we are so much more BONDED this year...just that class is making me feeel like my second home TOTAlly...doing stuffs tog...having names like ahmah...daddy....ummy...sister...baby....it's like so close to each other...and u will not be left alone man! GO 2E1!!!WE rawk!!!
history....BORED!!!that's so boring...i was busy replying letters to my dear juniors..*awww how sweet are they*wells..SO MANy to reply...but i dun mind...helping some which needs help...hmm..heex...some just wanna bond...some wanna chat...hahas...one more month to my bdae!*22 may* haiz...pros and cxons...gonna be a year older...but i will receive prezzies!!!(received mie early one from mummy...MP3!!)daddy....wat am i having??*stares innocently*
english lesson was a mess...all of a sudden haf CA...I NEVER PREPARE...cause the tch didn' tell us!!!!LATE for assembly...got scolded...the whole class in fact...haish...thanks to the tch...she say she will explain for us...but she ran away intead man!
after skool...went back to class after that assembly..(chinese opera??)then we chatted...alot of us...talking abt even the most personal stuff...secrets...stuff...just chatting,....then went eat lunch with the whole bunch of them at video world....hmmm...so fun spent almost loke one hour there..chatting,....eating...noodles...iceream...candies...andstuff....so cool lahz...love it..i will alwasy remember the days we haf tog....it's not forgetable!
2E! rawks....we are a family....i mean my friends rawk even more....more more than anything...more than wadeva lahz....hahaz....

life....

skool ended early!out of all the lessons....only one is education...chinese...the rest is art and legacy.......no wonder i am energetic for some reasons!but we were singing during legacy lessons while working on some projects (carnival day) in the art room!so loudly and mdm seah didn't come and stop us...hahaahh we were worshipping there!singing HILSONGS!!!!they rawk!!!HILSONGS IS COMING TO SINGAPORE IN AUGUST!!!!!5-7 of aug...at INDOOR STADIUM!!!!7.30-10.30!!!!MUST GO!!!
anyway....me and my fren immed rushed to shopping malls.....haha.it was cool!!!buying hair accessories....yipee!!but my fren was like practically EVERY hair acesorries....hmmm....didn't bring alot of money...in the first place i dun even get much for my aloowance...but*regrets* for not saving money...with wad i haf...have to pay so many funds!choir and class...haiz..now want to buy things...then BANKRUPT!!!so sad...but never mind lahz...anyway i think we spent like 45 mins in montip...cause their acesories and other stuffs were rather gorgeous compared to the rest!cute things all over the shop man!and a life size mirror!i ling to haf that but ....there is no place in my house i can put taht...HDB...so small place only...but.....hm...saw a few of my primary skool frens there...coool huh?miss them so much!
went to popular to buy styrofoam board...and i was dragging it around whn i was shopping...so afraid it would just break *against the wind current*so inconvenient!!!look like someone carrying a poster!!!advertisement??NO way! hmmm....IF we had more time...and IF we had more money ....we would go to other malls and take neos!*longingly waiting*....the day would come...i know...SAVE MONEY!!!!
anyway....i failed maths...screwed the whole paper up....but i am surprised at myself...how ever can i ever be shortlisted for the austrailian maths cmpetiton????maths was NEVER my niche for sake...mentioning abt that prestigiouis award for MATHS????impossible!!!i haf never passed maths!!!for sake....ever since i entered hmmm..secondary skool....cuas i ahve a very bad impresions abt it..and the tch makes yp 60% of my bad impression!!!!hmmm...anyway...i'll just go for it!!!wadeva it is......ermmm i dunno.......haf to pay...see!how to save money????$8 lehz...aiyo!man!!!left so little....i dun wanna go penniless!!!!

juniors....this is for U!!!learn to accept..i have heard many things and incidents...aout this and that..i understand how u all feel...cos...i went through it before...just accept...dun hate till the core!cause they are still human....i heard of that gal....some of u told me...yup she is stubborn....of course...these ppl are the 'challenge'they give to the class...whether u pass it or not...depends on U as an individual...hate...such a strong word ya?nope..dun hate...cause WE as an individual is NOT PERFECT...WE as an individual...is always making blunders too..so that doesn't give us a right to hate...just treat that person as invisible if u really can't stand her...stubborness...is born to be...so....yup...i haf gota say these...bond as a class kay??1/1??U CAN DO IT!!!lurvve ya all lotsz!!! *hugz*

wadeva it is...i will not regret...though i will sometimes.....it seemed just ages away..for something miraculous to happen...just right in front of my eyes...i see...i realised.....it was never too late...cause there is everyone around me...there when i need them...they are alawasy by my side...and i will never forget them....they make a mark in my life....we worked as one....never to fail...never divided....cause of one thing...LOVE...we care...and we know...that NO one is hopeless.....cause that is wat friends are for...encouragement...never to hate........loving them a we love our family......

missing...

skool was boring today....i screwed my maths test up...how many times must i fail maths in a row for sake?i dun get it...that;s not my nicch though....but...i dunno lahz...history CA today it wad bleah!....screwed up again!shan;t talk abt this anymore...
hmmm....tml after skool...woohoo...going compass point with some friends!and i am so excited cause alot of my primary skool frens would be going too!yay! i can see them there!!!!that's great though....hmmm...oh yes...someone treating me to lunch...hmm...so sad..it's not ******..if not i will smile my teeth off!haha...wadeva!i am crapping ya???but...this is wat a blog is for...it's so personal so lt it be....
how will you feel if u go out with a boy alone especially if u didn't even crush on him?
haiz...
wierd...and stuff...
but i'll just treat him lik a friend lahz...
big deal..
that's call life for sake...
i'll just live with it tomrrow...
i miss him....

more lovely taggies...thanks

reubies: hi hi just stopped by to sayhav a nice weekend! cos they are precious**
alicia: crystal!!!! i am here to tag. i am so nice i tagged two tyms! (: haha. okay i am crapping. haha. is dis tag nice enuf for the crystal nice-o-meter??? jking lar. it should be nice enuf (x
e*iLeen: i l0vee y0uu!!!
[me]ppl!thanks alot...we have ups and downs...jiaxing gor...u musn;t give up ok??cause i am behind u...u must carry on...dun give up on ur section..percussion is tough i know...but pray pray and pray that ur section will mm...
[john14:27]Peace, I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
Jesus rawks uh?
so many orayer request today....
-test
-*ahem*
-ppl havin trouble
-church
-nation
-friends
hmm looks veyr simple huh?Avtually it's alot of details...

if i admit i like...

had church today...wasn't t€oo bad...i just love worshipping Him somehow...he rawks...anyway...had fellowship after christian education...horrendous man...any way we played this game...something like murderer..and the 'host' tap me...so i was the murderer...and he asked me who i wanna kill...so i pointed to this boy...*ahem*and he gave me some really wierd look trying to ask me if i am sure...smiling away like something wicked...any way..yup..they guessed right....after a long long time...cause i guess i was too good at keeping until i laugh back and forth non stop!
okay then after that...martin..the host....he either can't control himself of wat...just start making obvious remarks and actions that i *ahem* the boy....okay wadeva....any way that boy is SLOW!!!VERY SLOW...the whole world knows it except HIM....******!!!!!will u just wake up??okay.,....never mind i am patient somehow...*phew* thankfully...he's blur too...haiya pros and cons lahz....but he's handsome...tall....dark....intelligent/.....loves GOd...and wadeva i desire lahz...(manz i sound like as if he is the perfect guy!!!)
i'll just pray...that he will wake up....haizyo...never mind....
okayy...ppl...those who keep asking me that question...here is the answer okayy???satisfied???i even blogged it out kay??
wadewva...but i can't control...
if that's love....
it's love..
i admit lahz...
shan't lie anymore about this.....
ok pp....
have a nice day la

the lovely tags i haf received...

shirleenlow: ok larh...i guess we have to calm down a little.i knoe its hard...
Evon: There's always unexpected things that will happen. Its then we have to accept it. Yes, its hard, but still have to move on. Likfe continue...So don't get held back by this
shirleenlow: i guess so...at least, I'm trying.sigh...AHHH!so frustrating
beL: TKGS CHOIR ROX!IM PROUD TO BE A TKGIAN CHORISTER!PROUD TO BE IN ALTO2!-BRUST INTO TEARS*
alicia: cheer up crystal!!! i noe you are feeling bad..i carn wait for tuesday to come oso!!!
e*iLeen: heyy deArriee.GOd has a pLan for everything k.leave it to Him and TRUST.i l0vee u always. (=
gracy: stay strong
jiaxing: i am glad i got to know u... i have to say this cuz i keep thinking of when i will leave this place
elim: Hey darlink!!! take care ok!!! smile! smile!!!

thanks ppl!!!these tags...short...but meaningful...has made a difference in one way or another...GOd bless u all...CHOIR DUDES!!!!we rawk!!!!
totally utterly...
*never be replaced*

life?????

i dind't blog yesterday...utterly NO mood to do so!was like listening to songs...bringing myself to better mood...but it didn;t work...
anyway had skool today...it was boring...(duh! which skool day is not boring except the day when i haf CHOIR???) my DNT tch miss seng was just practically crapping....(to me)....i'm still sick...sorethroat(been screaming too much)....flu....gastric(it started recently)...(somethings is wrong man!!!)not only me...many others too...is it a virus???or the environmental status??that's wierd...
crap......stones in my heart....so many of them...stuggling to drop them...but the 'gravity' dun seem to enable me so...it's troubling me...one 'stone' after another...non stop...especially in skool today...(i'm glad i'm still able to stay at least a little bubbly!)had to settle some music stuff with my whole class for their pratical ca....and helped them photocopy the scores they want....(actually the tch ask me let them do themself...but...i didn't want to give them too much trouble so i helped!)
international friendship day today!heard the songs in the morning were lame(by divya)hmm...i cut my finger TWELVE TIMES today!!!!isn't it horrible??cause i was using cans to weave flowers..then i just cut myslef...that;s so painful...u can go imagine that...
i really dun want next tues to arrive....i really dun want...i cam't bear to see the seniors leave e just like that...i know i haf not been treasuring the time i had with them....occasionally making them angry.....but i really want to haf more time with them...the sec twos only haf a request....can we sing the competition song with u seniors ONE LAST TIME???please??tha'ts all we ask...ONE request only....e want to hear the whol choir with you all ONE last time....and it's really the LAST!!!(man...i wanna cry already lahz)

i', missing the seniors!!!

SENIORS~!!!!!haish!!!time pass sooo fast...it gonna be soon and they will be leaving us.they have been great!!!they rawk!!!man..i am too lost for words...haish all of us just wish that we can sing the competiton song just for that last time...SNIORS.....please.???that would be very memorable for us...cause we want to be able to sing with u all for the last time!!!!
i am missing them....but i know even if they leave,...their spirit will always remain among us...we won't let them down another time...the next time...yes...we will prove hat we can do it....no failures can pull us down...NONE!!!we are strong...fighting spirit....
today we had choir...not exactly but some ice cream celebration....MS LIM CAME!!!!....really but won't it be better if ms lim come give us those talk earlier on instead of SHE???WON"T IT BE???i mean really ms lim is so much more encouraging....much more...she acknoledges...she;s proud of us....she's happy with our results..to her we are still a CHoir of GOLD WITH HONOUR....the seniors deserved all the honour...*sunshine claps* they deserve it!!!
i'm really lost for words..haiz...the band results are out...GOLD...sigh...another scene of sadness...another blunder...SHE....will you just be good???we came in this state because if ur SELFISHNESS....WHY WHY U only care abt the skool reputation...SO WAD????wt's the matter with u????WAKE UP WILL YA???yupour skool is like falling...the niche of our skool...has GONE DOWN THE DRAIN all IN YOUR HANDS!!!!WAKE UP!!!!STOP UR BIASNESS....u think it will bring us good???comeon!!!! #$%&*!!!!!i'm really pissed at the SHE.....
this song....'never be replaced' GRACE sent me...it was fantastic...it reminds me it brings me back to all the memories..i have in choir....it's really really nice...THANKS GRACE!
Never be Replaced
[Chorus] Baby I love you and i'll never let you go But if I have to boy I think that you should know All the love we make can never be erase And i promise you that you will never be replaced Baby I love you and I'll never let you go But if I have to boy I think that you should know All the love we make can never be erase And i promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you yes i do I'll be with you as long as you want me too Until the end of time From the day I met you I know we've be together And now I know I wanna be with you forever I wanna marry you and i wanna have your kids Thinking never compare to feel enough to kisses I can say i'm truly happy to the same You've made me think I'll die and live my life hesitate There's never been no doubt in my mind That i'll regret ever having you by my side But if the day come that i'll have to let you go I think that something I should probadly let you know With everything that i spent with you Then i will miss you cuz i'm happy that i have you at all
[Repeat Chorus]
I feel for you yes i do I'll be with you as long as you want me to Until the end of time
it's meaningful right???i am listening to it each time i play my mp3 and even NOW!!!

i dUN feEl hOW i wanT!! wat is this???

sKOol...i practically can't concentrate at all...i was just waiting for skool to end...I CAN"T WAIT FOR CHOIR!!!but when the last period came...it was lit..i wan't even looking at MS ang for goodness sake...i was far way deep down in my thoughts...thinking about many things...many many...i was wondering when would the lesson end?cause i want to go and cry out..but something is wrong with me...when 1.45 came...i was feelinb nervous...very...i have no idea wat's wrong with me...tell me!!!
when we went to the choir room...i TRIED TO BE HAPPY...but IT:S SO FAKE!!nothing seemed to be right for some reason of another...when i woke up...i wasn't feeling right!i haf no idea really none...any way...yup SHE came and SHE gave us another talk...i have NO comments...utterly none...i wasn half listening....my heart dun seem to be in skool today...this is bad...any way...yup we wrote affirmations to one another...i was LOST FOR WORDS!!!only poems came so i wrote them to one of the com members...oh yes we also presented the cute little bears to the seniors...and a big card which cost TEN DOLLARS,...hmm hopefully they will like it...it ended rather early...so i made my way to parkway!

Reached parkway...when i was reaching the other end...i saw shuwei grace yuting melanie and serene and charlotte...i haf no idea wat's up with hengyue she just loves to freak out when she sees them...went to YOSHINOYA to eat the students meal...hmmm taste ratehr good but i was BLOATED after that...

ok here comes the part...we were in minitoons...choosing some hair accesories...when the seniors came in...i wanted to say HI but that hengyue just freak out...man wat's up??haiz..SORRY SENOIRS...didn't mean to keep runnig away from u ppl but i haf hengyue with me...so forgive me...hmm...yup....wanted to buy things today but was ruin by hengyue cause she freak out in front of the seniors and that makes me diff to face them in parkway...haiz....my dearest hengyue...the SENIORS AREN"T GHOST !!!!they are soooo FRIENDLY....sooo nice...dun't u LOVE THEM:???

okay any way...we had to leave parkway...sigh.,...i am glad it cheered me up a lil except for the fact that wemade teh seniors felt wierd...sorry ah...didn't meant to but....was tagged with her...hmmm...

choir tml ppl...aint' it cool???hmmm haiz i haf lots to say to teh seniors...but i HAF NO GUTS!!!especially to someone...cause she looks so fierce...actually she is not but LOOK...haiz...seniors....really lurvve you guys lots...muacks!!!

keep rawking and hope u all like those affirmations...you guys haf proved yourself good!

here was the poem to all seniors!!....hope it's nice...

You;ve worked so hard,

we've come this far.

today was teh day

we've warmed the hearts of all

we've proved ourself good

cos you were in our midst

you pulled us through

tolerated our disobedience

we;'ve got our gratitude

all in our hearts

we've strived.we've fight

in the end,

we understood you purpose

we fought as one

the sweats have not gone in vain

though troubles seemed steps away

the last few days

we've awaken

we've worked as one

putting behind differences

we did ms lim proud

we did you proud

we've achieved our best

for in our hearts

we've always know till now

WE ARE A CHOIR OF ATTITUDE

A CHOIR OF QUALITY AND FIGHTING SPIRIT!

fate and destiny

ya right!MRS LOKE is giving us a talk tommorrow after skool...to the choir...let's see wat's going to happen...haven't she appeared enough in front of us??heven't she???i just feel sick listening to ehr talks...but too bad...i'll be just awaiting for 3pm tml cause we can interact...haiz...any way...felt really sick today....HEADACHE...it's really pain...i can't stand it...but i'm glad i have a VERY HIGH TOLERENCE FOR PAIN...otherwise i will be screaming off anything...
skooll...was alright...just weak...mentally and physicallly...saw all the COM members... i really PRAY that they are alright somehow...hmm MR YAP WAS BAPTISED ON SUNDAY!!!cool...haiz...i can tell u one thing...i wasn't paying attention during class...my mund is wandering of...thinking abt tml...but how??ocassionally shedding tears...i'm dried up...i really pray hard for the seniors...that GOD STRENGTH WILL BE UPON THEM...
i only haf one thing to say now...
SENIORS!!!I LOVE YOU ALL!!!TKGS CHOIR RAWKS!
had cell group today...it was an abnormal feeling man...i became so wuiet cause all way through i was practically thinking abt choir choir and choir...i wasn't really paying much attention...i admit...and i just loose all my appetite and craving for food...please..i hopw i'm alright...i would just break down during cell but...i held..i told my self to be strong cause i didn't wanted any one to worry for me...
after cell...we were watiting for the leader to pack..and me and hengyue went out first...we had the same feelings at the same time and we hugged each other...that was wat i exactly need...been waiting for long for someone to hug me...i felt better...that's a very great consolation...
while i was on my way home...the leader smsed me...saying that she feel sad for me and her bible college...i was stunned by the msg...cause i really didin't really understood...the next msg i received was..GOD ANSWERED MY PRAYER...and surprisingly..she knew wat was troubling me i guess...GOD's so great....
below is me...that's how am i NOW
//she wasn't herself//
//ever since the results came//
//wad haf she gotta do//
//she's not strong//
//why?haven't she been brave//
//it's a blow//
//can she take it//
//till now it's four days//
//she feels sorry//
//why hasn't she been sick on that day//
//nothing would haf happen//
//fate and destiny//
//she wants her normal self back//
//she's sick//
//the world's crashing down on her//
//choir is her home//
//nothing is better//
//except the omnipotent GOD//
//the flowers scent//
//the andanta music//
//are bringin back//
//the sad memories of 8 April//
//she can't help//
//but cry//
//where is joy when she needs//
//she 's speechless//

if this is life?wat's that?

whY should the seniors blame themselves?

we've got more to do so!!!

i mean if o thursday i had told them to recount

(which i intended so)

nothing would haf happen...

if my sorethroat got worse

i wouldn't haf to go on stage but y???

i'm so lost...i really dunno wad to do...

i'm not any better either

i am sick

headache and flu...

i can't wait for monday...

to cry out freely....

i've been keepig for like so long

i can't hold any longer

tml is the day....

my heart will be teary...

i can't help it either....

i realised how weak i can be

and how strong i can get

life is so unfair

very....why why??

why can't i remain sick on that day..

i was already sick...

my throat hurt

but i kept quiet

y?i thought i was very noisy?

i thought i like to comment alot?

y didn't i open my mouth?

tell shuwei that i am sick?

whywhywhy??

i'm just so silly sometimes

shuwei,

u've screamed at us..

u've shouted at us...

it's for our own good..

cause in mind u haf a goal

but we didn't apprieciated...

till the last minute,

we began to realised the importance..

you are good...very very good

really but u made us realised many things..

you are the best leader i have met...

dun blame urself..

ccause it makes us feel worse

it makes us feel guilty

WE LOVE YOU!

stay strong gal....

we need you....

we are behind you

as i typed this...

tears are streamingdown....

y????

why am i so weak?

i'mbreaking down...

i can't hold anymore...

i love you tkgchoir

i love you!

nuMBnESs...

iT sEeMeD like ageS has passed...true??hmmm i duN thINk so but...it SeemEd only...haha...i guess everyone is feelng numb now...and me and belicia thought that we should stop all the crying thingy...and continue...it seemed wierd huh?i dunno but i'm just feeling wierd in me...receiving sms every now and then...talking abt wad happen...some say it's like a night mare...true of course...haiz...it seemed like only the junior (sec2) are 'active' online...ppl like alicia....belicia.shirleen...and me lor...haiz.....where are all the seniors??(except Evon)aRE they lost in their oWn woRld??hmm i dun suppose so...
Choir on TuesdaY...same time say place..same face... take note choiristers!
MS lim will not be coming but there will be a 'talk' by the seniors..and it better not be the SHE...as we suppose...
hMMm dun't 'u ppl realise something?this SYf thingy has caused more 'bonding' in disguise....that's how we juniors think...but such a bonding...eh urmm....is a sad one hahaha
Com on....CHEer uP pPl...rigHT???internet active junIORs???ain' that wat we are asking everyone to dO???hahah
i guess....we have gone like CRAZY some how...heex....funny ya??
(sorry..trying to make my self forget abt wadeva it is...)
yippe doodle!i hope wadeva it is...it will fade soon...and we will sail...(row row row your boat)down the gentle flowing stream of our wonderful life right???haha...now time to repl to ppl's tag (actually i got this idea from VON...it's a good idea though)
BeL:hEy yea righT!!! TK CHOIR WILL RAWK ON FOREVER and we shall pass it down from generation to generation ya???hEY sOP 1 rawks too!!!
ALiciA:ermm sorry but i dun think i get wad u mean thought...cheer up gaL!
ShIR:let those scencs fade away i know and i understand it is diff...bUT...iF u know wat life is...u'll understand...and will try to give in more...haha....
sO ppl...chEEr up kae??there is nothing wrong..this is life(SALAVI)in french!

we have done it!but there's a greater gift!

there's a greater gift if u guys will agree with me....
that's is morre passion for choir
i mean is that if we didn't had treh passion.....would we even care???no!!!trust me...this is the greater award..cause without passion,we wouldn't be able to continue striving on...without love,we wouldn't be able to do anything...so this is the greater gift! but WE ARE THE TOP CHOIR...and we will be able to face others the same way as we did...it doesn't mean that a blunder can cause each of us to fall and NEVER stand!NOT TRUE!!!we have to be a choir of strong mindset,one which would defeat every problem!one that would say NO to problems!!!that's wat we want to be...this blunder...yes it is sad...but! it has caused us to realise many many things in life...the after effect realisation is the greater one...the reesults doesn't matter now...is our attitude...if we haf it,we win EVERYTHING...we dun need to haf the award to prrooof...is our will...so TK CHOIR...WE WILL FIGHT k?especially juniors!!!cause we were built by a group of VERY GOOD leaders...and we will love them throughout cause they have done a FABULOUS JOB!!!

SYF...tears...

early in the morning...wnt to grace house...happily excitedly waiting to go for SYF...it's my first one in secondary skool...and i definately looked forward to it...hmmm grace helpme looked pretty by helping me to put make up...thanks GRACE...love ya lots...went to skool...i was sooo shock to see SHU WEI's face ALL PALE..i was veyr shocked...but wat can i do?i haf gotta sing...sigh...i really feel sorry for her...beign the president..is not easy at all...i feeel very sorrry haiz... afdter that..everythign went well...they counted 79 and 79...we sang..everyone praised us...i knew we would make it to the top!but...when the results came...shu wei was total glum...she was..i knew something was wrong...she was showing big gestures to evon...i knew she was gonna cry...they went to look for the tch...they came towards us...both crying...something wasnt' right at all...it wasn't...when evon wanted to break the news to us,she broke down even before she could say GOLD...shu wei i know have no strength already...it has been really hard on her...i know that...everyone cried...i held back...i didn't wished to be any more burden to my seniors..so i held...i held...it was really difficult cause everyone around me was crying...i tried smiling a little but i failed...then we were direscted to the studio...i really ratehr ms terry to give the talk compared to that SHE...you all choir members will know hu i am refering to...SHE made thigns worse...in fact making more angry...if i ever had the guts i would haf gave her a slap...but i can;t...she was sayign our choir until like wad like that..sigh seniors pls dun blame urself pls...it's really not your fauly i mean...we didn't did on purpose...we really didn't...it's really depressing...i know....i know how u feel....we really feel sorry....shu weiz...dun take things too hard...take care too!

crapping....wat a week!killing me

com'om...do u believe it????FOUR CAs this week!!!!
over board....
still have choir competition....man....i think i wil be exhaunsted even before any thing could start to go on....sigh...choir want my life is it??whole day have morning practices....those songs have become more like ear worms to me....ear worms..that's the word....practicing until it polluted my mind....i wake up,the song comes i mean do u think i like it???
k nvm
but....
so many CA....todayhave maths....then chinese then home ed then history right after we come back from competition..,.this is unreasonabel for some reasons...i am sec two...not young...not much time to spend....so busy untl my head can drop off any time....but wat can i do cause i am involved...unwillingly in alll these things....i really wish we get to study the suubjects we want now...andi will definately choose music,bible.and sports....wait long long cause i will never choose education,...ok maybe chem an bio...cause i like genetics engineering..hahah for some wierd reasons or another....can't blog much....cause it is recess time now...gotta eat....
bb.....

hmmm....

mon...likes an duns....the lessons are just freaking boring lor....every mon i go skool i just simply await for skool to end....cause i can't wait to go for cell group.,.i love it...i wisged church was my skool....man...will it come true???i want to praise him all my life...worship...be in contact with him every moment....will it come true???hmmm.....nono....yesyes....so will it? wait long long ah...
okay...today is wanying bdae....happy bdae!
ok well...pope john paul passed away...grieve...he's a man of God...i wish to be like him...being the bridges of fAITH.....spreading the gospel...evangelising....being on missionaries....serving God....caus his the one and only one worth serving....worth scrificing for...I LOVE HIM
hmmm...revalation is coming...many things had happened..tsunami after christmas, earth quake after Easter....death of the pope....fall of Iraq(babylon)....Jesus is coming...the judgement day is coming...beprepared..everyonE! accept the truth....of who the real God is....only fools dun believe....

i fOUnd mY puRpOSe rIGHT agAIn

lala suing my laptop...forgive me if there are capital letters out of no where cause it is so wierd not used tot eh keypad haha any way i am addicted to the com alread lo...it's so nice...i am sooper addicted alrady one day dun touc the com also cannot ....haha any way....rejoice....rejoice...just came back from meeting jia xing...for bible study...hmm....that's like feeding him with spiritual milk....cause he needs lots....any way,jx,must continue to pursue God...as u said in the summary'put GOd in the first place' so....u muz do it...okay?everyone;s suposrtin u....GOd...JEsus....thank u....yay!!!!what do i see on my calendar???CHURCH tml!yay!!!WORSHIP...WOOHOO!!!!JEsus freak....he rawks...[psalms 46:1]'God is my refudge and strength ,my ever present help for trouble'

ChEeRleAdINg rAwKS

WE DID IT!!! 2e1ners! WE rawk! we emerged CHAMPION!!!our efforts have been paid off totally!we ahd a good head start,we will end wel, it's our last year being tog and we will treasure the times we haf ahead of us,aren't we going to? we rawked bedok stadium out!!!GOd rawks too! without his helo amongst us, we will never emerge to get in!
Composed a song of praise...JESUS, HE"S THE SAVIOUR OF US ALL!!!
i love it...(duh!!!)any way...not much to say today cause i am OVERJOYED...is like we all shouted,scream like crazy....until i got a headache after that...the scream was horendous! we were shocked..all the cheerleaders held hands in a circle,bend our heads...we were nervous of course...but i know God will help us...amEn???yes of course!!!cause we rawk!!!