fate and destiny

ya right!MRS LOKE is giving us a talk tommorrow after skool...to the choir...let's see wat's going to happen...haven't she appeared enough in front of us??heven't she???i just feel sick listening to ehr talks...but too bad...i'll be just awaiting for 3pm tml cause we can interact...haiz...any way...felt really sick today....HEADACHE...it's really pain...i can't stand it...but i'm glad i have a VERY HIGH TOLERENCE FOR PAIN...otherwise i will be screaming off anything...
skooll...was alright...just weak...mentally and physicallly...saw all the COM members... i really PRAY that they are alright somehow...hmm MR YAP WAS BAPTISED ON SUNDAY!!!cool...haiz...i can tell u one thing...i wasn't paying attention during class...my mund is wandering of...thinking abt tml...but how??ocassionally shedding tears...i'm dried up...i really pray hard for the seniors...that GOD STRENGTH WILL BE UPON THEM...
i only haf one thing to say now...
SENIORS!!!I LOVE YOU ALL!!!TKGS CHOIR RAWKS!
had cell group today...it was an abnormal feeling man...i became so wuiet cause all way through i was practically thinking abt choir choir and choir...i wasn't really paying much attention...i admit...and i just loose all my appetite and craving for food...please..i hopw i'm alright...i would just break down during cell but...i held..i told my self to be strong cause i didn't wanted any one to worry for me...
after cell...we were watiting for the leader to pack..and me and hengyue went out first...we had the same feelings at the same time and we hugged each other...that was wat i exactly need...been waiting for long for someone to hug me...i felt better...that's a very great consolation...
while i was on my way home...the leader smsed me...saying that she feel sad for me and her bible college...i was stunned by the msg...cause i really didin't really understood...the next msg i received was..GOD ANSWERED MY PRAYER...and surprisingly..she knew wat was troubling me i guess...GOD's so great....
below is me...that's how am i NOW
//she wasn't herself//
//ever since the results came//
//wad haf she gotta do//
//she's not strong//
//why?haven't she been brave//
//it's a blow//
//can she take it//
//till now it's four days//
//she feels sorry//
//why hasn't she been sick on that day//
//nothing would haf happen//
//fate and destiny//
//she wants her normal self back//
//she's sick//
//the world's crashing down on her//
//choir is her home//
//nothing is better//
//except the omnipotent GOD//
//the flowers scent//
//the andanta music//
//are bringin back//
//the sad memories of 8 April//
//she can't help//
//but cry//
//where is joy when she needs//
//she 's speechless//