in school now waiting for choir to start firstly..if u are in a good mood...dun continue reading...because i just felt like blogging and tell my sorrows to this blog...i dunno why...but i'm feeling very down for no reason...is like just now when i was having lunch..i wasn't feeling good at all...all the bad memories just came back to me suddenly...and i just felt like crying....i just felt like leaving school...i really do not like it at all...i dread choir. i dread everything...everything just seems as if the world was going to falll...my results...and SOME PPL...it seems as if my future was ruined in this school...but why why??everything....is like during lunch time...i saw this choir member...and i just felt like crying...why is this? i really dun get it...i'm just trying to hide how i feel...but...it never seemed possible...yesterday during choir...i was holding back my tears ....i dunno why but i just want to cry if i have anything got to do with choir. i dun enjoy it at all...i love singing...i try my best to enjoy it...but i grow to dread it each practice..it isn't only me who thinks this way but many others...wat has choir done?why can't i just let it go??must it stay on me forever until i leave this school?i'm not happy at all..
the bad memories...nothing happy came back to me today...it's all the sad things...not sad...but demoralising...i thought my hurts were all far forgotten...but...it came back to me...of all why must it be today ? why why?why???there's choir today...bad enough already and this must come back today?
God...help me...i really need you...i just need you...take away all my hurts...my sorrows...

JEsus...there's none other like u
take my pain...
take my hurts...
that i would be renewed...
you are all that i adore...
ther'es none like u...
all of my days
i want to praise
the wonders of ur mighty love
u are my comfort
and my strength
a refudge in times of trouble
Jesus..come in my now.
fill me with ur peace and Joy...
i need them lord....