PATIENCE...

GOd...help me...
i'm just all irritated...
at some ppl..i'm not going to mention.

yes i know....wadeva it is...
i dun care wat other's think..
I"M LIVING MY OWN LIFE...
if i feel that it's a life of quintenssence...

every decibal of sound i hear from someone just irritates me...

it's gettting difficult to tolerate now adays.
i'm learning real hard..
there's so many things around me...
surrounding me like some eternity of flame...
instead of glory....
that simply irks my puny brain

FULL STOP!

Good morning! welcome to Saturday26/8/06.
i'm crystal. and i'll be your host for this entry.=)

alright that's kinda lame...
actually mass communication is kinda fun yea?with all the stuff and everything...commenting and critisizing...reporting and writing...
THE POWER OF LANGUAGE...=)

it's still to that extend that it sometimes just is a challenge to write well or rather give some excruciating comment or reviews. TO THAT CERTAIN EXTENT.....

alright. FYE is approaching in no time...and tell me...
which organ or cell or tissue on me express that I AM READY?
yes....precisely....

do i run for the quintenssence of life?
or do i catch the fire of life?

everything to me
is more than a story.
more than words
on a page of history
He's the air that i breath
the water i thirst for
the ground beneath my feet.
He's everything.

it's been around 1 month plus...ever since i had that 1.30 hr for God...
not until sunday night....
when i was just so greatly touched by God during quiet time...
i wept non stop in front of Him...
and he spoke and touch so much till i was so tired, i naturally fell asleep...

what have i been doing?
GOD...ure really so wonderful in my life...
sometimes i just dunno how to thank you...
people ask me...''who is this God?''....''why are u worshipping Him?''

all i could say was ''because i love Him..''

but now...i'm just so able to tell others...
''MY GOD, is a God...who not only LOVE...HEALS...and JUDGE.
but MY AWESOME GOD is one who CARES!
one who NEVER FAILS U,
one who is ALWAYS THERE...''

i also want to thank God for my brother who came church...
i was just shocked...
but i know GOd's working in him...
i can see that he cares for me...
and is just different..

THANK YOU JESUS=)

SABBATH iS TODAY....

and i just have to say...
the CROSSBEARERS are really whom i lOok up to besides God...=)


let me blabber and whine before i sayss....=)

BLABBERS:
-today's worship by Reuben was fabulous!...=)
-sharing by Jiaxing was wonderful!
-daddy's fetching me first before naughty brother!
-worship by Van during YF was good!
WHINES:
-brother dun want to pay for lunch
-naughty youths during lunchtime.
-school tml

God is good overall...and really....
i think it's a real real joy to spend time in his kingdom every Sunday...
without fail, it cheers everyone up...

You're all the i need,
the reason i live.
ought to be the one,
i worship and love.
for your faithfulness is greater,
than those on earth.

longing for your touch,
your love and strength.
never would want to drift apart.
ever again.

thank God for my ECONS presentation....tch say it was very good!

droning....and everything...
sometimes i just dun get why i just have gotta be a pure thinker...
i just wonder wat makes spices in our lives...
i'm just thinking mad everytime...
it brings one to be really quiet and so on.....
u wouldn't smile when u think. but.......many things are going on inside...

yes...that's me...alright?
so many things on mind...
they either just purely irritate me.
or they just want to make me burst.

OH BRAIN! COME ON!

and i dun exactly give a damn to this clot in my wind pipe....
I CAN"T BREATHE properly....
so do i give a damn?
NO, obviously...

purely missing...........
something.
someone.
moments.

that's it.

today, is a sunday. was rather late for morning coporate prayer.
but despite, i went.
infact, thank God that i went...cause i could feel his presence,
i just have so much to tell God.
seriously, i dunno wat i shld do.
i want my spiritual life to get better, i want my studies to be equally good.
TIME MANAGEMENT.
that's the barrier for most ppl, but i just have to THANK YOU JESUS...
he's been helping me with time management that i find no problem doing extra things.

infact,
my problem is just STRESS...
that's all...but that is unchangable.
tell me who doesn't face stress in the world?
tell me who who wants to do well does not get stress?
i'm having a battle with JOY and STRESS,

today during sermon, so many thoughts went through my mind.
i saw Reuben drawing those little cute cartoons on his sermon notes,
and i was just wondering...
how good it is to just remain child like...
and i just started, and hope to treasure my youth.
it isn't too late. but i wonder if i'm permitted to.

what's a youth's desire?
what's my desire?
what can i do when i'm just young and so easily bullied...?

that was just going thru me for at least 6 months.
God, tell me.

let's see..it's 12 august today.....

1st-12th...
what have been going on?
national day...holiday...sleep....eat....work...pigg....stomach flu...
YES! speaking about that... VIRAL GASTROENTHIRITIES is pure terrible....
but count urself lucky if u ever get it and dun vomit...
otherwise....u jolly well go to the wonderful hospital...

sometimes i just have triple of zillion thoughts,
i still dun understand wat i'm doing all these for....
i wonder...''if the world hasn't been improving...so???''
we dun need to improve ourselves,
i feel that whateever we do, we are just purely doing it for our own survival on earth,
to admire the quintenssence of mother nature...
SO???
We're gonna DIE in the end...
everything will just be perished into no where...
can we reunite with it?
HEAVEN IS A WONDERFUL PLACE FOR US....

are u...? are u gonna gain that ticket to heaven???

main event--> NAPFA 5 stations.

got A for everything except incline pull up...
but i've got sth to share abt that!

well..yes...i admit i was about to give up continuing incline after doing 3...
can die for me already...long time never train...
but suddenly...this really big group of my friends were behind me screaming...and cheering me on...
wow...attracted a crowd and gosh....
THE POWER OF ENCOURAGEMENT........
i did 12 after that!
gosh! its 4 times of everything!
but most importantly...it's been a long time since i was so touched by gratefulness...
i couldn't stop thanking God for them in my heart...

then after that...a few came up and thank me for wat i've did to them in the past...
and never did i realise...how on moving a friendship and encouragement could be...

and yes! chemistry CA....whole class failed except 1...every class also about the same situation..
but gosh! yes! i failed! but i improved!
i just couldn't believe it...i thought i would be the one with the single digit...
but THANK YOU FATHER! thank yOU!

i'm just so filled with gratitude in my heart.

i'm gonna backtrack....

MONDAY.(31st july)

wat a schedule to start the day with ....had so many exams and stuff going on..
but nevertheless...it's really something to thank God with cause the day ended on a light note..
had rehearsal with the Singapore Bible College Choir...so there...
yupp...
despite all..there's many things that God had made me realise deeply...
somehow i just feel different...i felt that something is just changed.
out of nowhere...i was just taught...how to love even more...
through circumstances where friends are in trouble and needed my support...
i'm sure Hengyue did too! =)
my mummy hengyue!