hols has just started...
ijust have to be sick on the first day of the holidays....=(
wat luck!
well...i can't blame anyone...
it started with me getting headaches everyday on the last 2weeks of sch...
then from the last day of sch onwards(26may), i started developing sore throat....

but then...how i know....on sunday (28may),
after service ended...i felt ultra nostalgia...
and ya... there i went...
taking van's warmjacket.(it saved some life)
and started sleeping...

after we shifted the place,
there i went...i guess the dust and so forth...made me more sick...
and there i went...feeling so cold..stil have to get some air freshner for church toilet..
and yes..i was like an ant in antartica...
really! believe me...it's not exaggerating...
hai...so...too bad...
there was went i realise that i was having fever!

so once i went back..( u see...i dun tell my parents whether i'm sick)
i fell right straight on the bed after they asked me to do some housework...
and started getting into my dreams....but u see...
SMSes just have to come during my sleep
and being a light sleeper...i'm on a disadvantage...

=S

but thank God...i woke up and didn't felt so feverish...
but my head islike s heavy......................

back to the world...where i see all sorts of people from all walks of like...
wells..today...boring day
BACKTRACKING...

Monday 15th may
--->got back MEP results..and i'm utter disappointed with it...
argh...i just can't stand that marker...making me break my record...
of getting the lowest mark for that practical in my entire life in music...CRAP
--->went for my first Singapore Symphony Chorale rehearsal after a long time..
the next performance is coming up in September...and yea...
it certainly is a privelledge to be able to work with Lim Yau, SSO resident conductor...
it's like a DREAM COME TRUE for me...=)

Tuesday 16th may
--->nothing much la...did some library decorations...
---> then went out to BISHAN JUNCTION 8 to buymyself a set of clothes...
it took me really months before i bear to spend that money...
heart pain....but i thought it would be worth the spend yea?

Wednesday 17th may
---> i guess it's just a bad dayy lahh...some grouping stuff make me so upset
and my tears just couldnt resist...i never felt so sad in school before and ya..
no one saw those silent tears cause i just managed to hold it till i went outside class...

TODAY
---> same thing as wednesday...this time is some geog group...i mean..i just have
to always be sandwiched between few ppl who are spilt into two groups..
one hates the other and vice versa...
it really just piss me of so much and yes!
They made me cry again!

ruthless yea?

today is MONDAY!
and it's been a long time since i am filled with craziness of joy!
oh wells...during newspaper reading period...i was just ''mesmerized'' by this interview
on KEVIN TONG...a local film directer...
wells...i was in love with it for a few reasons...
1)the picture in which was a pose which i like...(staring into space)
2)and because it was an interview of a film director...
3)and a phrase which MR MAN, mediaworkschief operating officer
''All creative people suffer peroids like this (sadness...depression...), even me, but going through ups and downs helps convey emotions when u are telling a story''

hahAS! i really agree with that man! not say i very creative or something but then u see....i think emotions do help a big load in conveying alot of very interesting stories...
----> back to his pose...he was just sitting leaning against the wall...having the sort of
''looking out the window'' look which i kinda fancy...*ahem*

yea...it lOOks....ermm ''artistic'' to me??? i mean...ya that pose is so my personality can?
too bad....but yea...

MR ang heard my loud squeal about that and he asked me wat...wells...and himself, debra, and i started chatting about movies and film directors...
giving comments about the three mission impossible
and we three agreeded that the first one is still more like a MISSION IMPOSSIBLE
hahaS!

alright nextly...
MY MUM AGREEDED TO LET ME GO FOR BBQ! PRAISE GOD!

this was passed on by a whole group of friends to me...(actually the whole yr one...but i take my month out only can!?!?!?)

MAY!
Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited

hei...thats just reading for fun la but it's like true...emails are sometimes spiced up by some crazy stuffs.. i really dislike being at home and yes u can read it urself!....

anyway. ya. i think i've been pigging and logging...
sleep sleep sleep...for like 14 hrs on sat....
ok..that is crazy and i know that...
but ya. it helps man!
make me a little more refreshed!

3rd of may....
tell me now...am i suppose to live everyday of my life having to count the number of days i'm actually sick?!?!?

LAST week of april...i was sick...now...may already still sick...
i mean...ya..it's a terrible flu which is making me go all nuts and pissed...
i'm controlling alot of anger and i'm doing it well with the help if God...

it's sochaotic la...i mean it's life. but...i wonder why there are more downs compared to ups..
literature...gosh...core lit students gotta do some creative writing and presentation for their CA..
whe the lit elect students do a dramatisation...

ya...sounds so....not appetizing..and now i'm really stuck here...
i feel like changing the whole tittle to just LIT WRITING...
take the creative word away! oh for goodsake..please!

sighs.....i want to smile continuously..
but...still...thank GOd for vann...for msging me...making me smile...
at least for that moment of time...=)
and i realise it takes great effort to smile when ur muscles are just tensed....