been a long time sinced i blogged....
there have been many a time...i wanted to give up in life...
especially these two weeks....a bane i would have thought...
many thoughts came through my mind...
all frail...and negative...what could i do in life?
i can't give up, though i wanted to...i admitted....
there was many a times where i felt horribly negative....
nothing was jsut there for me......
i know there was God....but.......it's a delusion...i wanted to do something which i'm not suppose to...it was a sudden verge of mind..a reality in life...i couldn't face but have to..
i have yet to fulfil.i have yet to see....
i have yet to feel...........
the goodness of life...

for once i'm back early....
wells..ya...had choir yesterday..
i wonder wat is CHORAL EXCELLENCE
cause i'm like one of the 10 selected to go for it in july..
all i know is that the moe ppl will be there which is like...OH NO...
screamed so much during sectionals too...and haha! i sounded like some gay...with a sore throat..!
went to school this morning and was SICK!
so practically every tch came in wondering where that little chicken's voice is...
hahAS! =)
it feels good to be home for once in this year...
there's SO MUCH FOOD FOR ME TO EAT!
and it's a joy to me ! ain't it?
heee....

back after quite some time...
back track....

SUNDAY
went to church...this time i was doing the OHP...
but it's still a service...during worship...i was touched once again...
for a few reasons...
one is because of the music played by the musicians...
yea..
then went home had sometime with God...
i jus really didn't expect that God would touched me so often...but ya He's GOOD

MONDAY
it's the Hols and yes...went for morning prayers...then went out with VAn n eLim...
bought some music ministry stuffs...then went a little crazy...
they're going off to our mother church in HOngkoNg...
*weeps*

TUESDAY
went for morning prayers too...
er...oh ya....then cheerleading practice...
then went back to church for service prac...
i'll be alone on e instruments on sunday....sighs...cause they're going off...
when i reached home...went to my piano...worshipped God while playing...
then i just cried...
i was just sad...rather personal...
but...ya...so much tears that have flown recently...
so much healing that took place...
how could i not say THANK U,MY FATHER...

WEDNESDAY
went batam..nothing much...synergy starts today...
i could even feel God's presence at batam...
how amazing....
went shopping and stuff..wasted alot of time..
played GO-CART...
hahas....

THURSDAY
spent more time with God...
slacked at home..
went to pla 5 games of bowling
and i kinda went broke...
but i just love it...

where's the crossbearers? i miss them....soon! soon!

TODAY!
finaly...wells had cheerleading. it was screwed...trust me it really was...
now i'm home...feeling nervous...
cause...sat and sun are coming...
gotta pray for anoiting....
*jelly fingers*

How great is our God...

alright had church service yesterday.
despite all that is done... i still wanna thank GOd for bringing me through
and He was very very pleased witht the youth fellowship...
yeah! all thanks to van for guiding me through too!=)

blar blar blar....(fast forward)
then had quiet time...
was so greatly touched by God...i cried and cried...
actually during the Holy Communion time...i was already touched but
i held back...cause i was playin the keyboard....
sighs...no one knows me better than anything besides God...

He who took the sadness away gave me a very peaceful sound sleep...
i'll pray for a good week ahead...

i miss the times...when i came online at home...listening to christian songs...
it's the 3rd of march today...
my God...
He healed me of my hurts...
except one...i really need and want that thing back...
the evil one...i've been drifting apart from this person whom i really love as a sister...

i prayed...i just feel depressed....
cause...i dun want to say...

He revealed another thing He wanted me to do on monday...
actually last year i already know...but i din't obey...
GOD I'M SORRY...
on the 28th feb...it was the third time GOd called me to do that thing..
i admitted...something hindered me from doing so...
i was afraid of something...

i'll share that whole testimony once that things is being done...
i need u...
GOd..
renew my life Lord JEsus...
take my life...

i cried before u....
u heard me...
and asked if i was ready....
WHY?
God...u were so patient to wait for me...
i'm not worthy of ur wait...
sorry...
forgive me Lord?